star.stuff
Active Member
Hi all,
I just got off the phone with the psychologist who did my neuropsych evaluation. It’s official - I am autistic!
She said there was a big discrepancy between my verbal (strong) and non verbal (very weak) abilities. My working memory was very poor, processing speed difficulties, and executive dysfunction. I told her how surprising this was to me because I’ve always been an A+ student, have a masters degree, and never had any trouble in school. But she said in school mostly everything is written down, plus these results have nothing to do with intelligence just the way your brain takes in and processes information.
I don’t really know how I feel right now. I am still processing this diagnosis (hello slow processing speed ). I think for now I just feel relieved and proud of who I am. I know what my strengths are, and now I know where my difficulties truly stem from. I am not weird, I am not broken, there is nothing wrong with me. I was not inept as a child when I couldn’t make friends, I was just on a different wavelength as most of the kids. I am not stupid because I can’t comprehend when my boss throws a million verbal instructions at me - I just need her to email it instead. I feel like I’ve gained a new appreciation for myself for navigating life so successfully even though I’ve been undiagnosed and never got any of the accommodations that probably would have helped me throughout school (I am 26.)
Wow!! What a lot to take in and think about. The psychologist will set me up with a therapist who I can talk to and figure out what steps I want to take at work and in my relationships and what would be most helpful for me.
Thank you if you’ve read my rant and sorry it’s so long, I’m just so overwhelmed right now!
I just got off the phone with the psychologist who did my neuropsych evaluation. It’s official - I am autistic!
She said there was a big discrepancy between my verbal (strong) and non verbal (very weak) abilities. My working memory was very poor, processing speed difficulties, and executive dysfunction. I told her how surprising this was to me because I’ve always been an A+ student, have a masters degree, and never had any trouble in school. But she said in school mostly everything is written down, plus these results have nothing to do with intelligence just the way your brain takes in and processes information.
I don’t really know how I feel right now. I am still processing this diagnosis (hello slow processing speed ). I think for now I just feel relieved and proud of who I am. I know what my strengths are, and now I know where my difficulties truly stem from. I am not weird, I am not broken, there is nothing wrong with me. I was not inept as a child when I couldn’t make friends, I was just on a different wavelength as most of the kids. I am not stupid because I can’t comprehend when my boss throws a million verbal instructions at me - I just need her to email it instead. I feel like I’ve gained a new appreciation for myself for navigating life so successfully even though I’ve been undiagnosed and never got any of the accommodations that probably would have helped me throughout school (I am 26.)
Wow!! What a lot to take in and think about. The psychologist will set me up with a therapist who I can talk to and figure out what steps I want to take at work and in my relationships and what would be most helpful for me.
Thank you if you’ve read my rant and sorry it’s so long, I’m just so overwhelmed right now!
