I have three friends, but I don't feel that I really want friends anymore. It kind of lowers my self esteem and I think that might be one one of the reasons. I also kind of find it a waste of time. I like spending time by myself better than with other people. I can't really be bothered to catch up with them and there isn't really a way that could happen since my and their mum would have to agree.
One thing that irritates me is that the intergration coordinater wants me to have friends and doesn't think one is enough for me. She suggested someone for me to be friends with and said she wants to see me with her. If I didn't have friends, I would still be quite happy. I don't need friends! A lot of people say everyone does, but not me. I went for over a year without friends once and I was fine, except teachers weren't happy about that.
I probably have to cope with having the same friends this year at school even though I don't like it 100%. I'm kind of looking forward to seeing them after the holidays, but being around them makes me feel bad about myself. They usually don't do anything wrong, but when they think something that I don't, it can hurt my feelings. I also don't like being wrong. If they react differently than me, it will probably also make me feel bad.
Is it best that I have friends or not?
One thing that irritates me is that the intergration coordinater wants me to have friends and doesn't think one is enough for me. She suggested someone for me to be friends with and said she wants to see me with her. If I didn't have friends, I would still be quite happy. I don't need friends! A lot of people say everyone does, but not me. I went for over a year without friends once and I was fine, except teachers weren't happy about that.
I probably have to cope with having the same friends this year at school even though I don't like it 100%. I'm kind of looking forward to seeing them after the holidays, but being around them makes me feel bad about myself. They usually don't do anything wrong, but when they think something that I don't, it can hurt my feelings. I also don't like being wrong. If they react differently than me, it will probably also make me feel bad.
Is it best that I have friends or not?