Coffee probably isn’t as bad as pharmaceutical drugs. Is your thyroid over active? Have you had that checked? It makes the mind race and hard to focus. Whether mine is hyper or hypo, coffee helps me focus. I think it works that way on everyone. That is why we love it so. have you thought about learning to build decks? The math figuring is fairly simple math using levels and a ruler. The labor is physical. You’d be lifting, carrying boards around. My husband is hyperactive, ADSD, can’t read or spell to write anything. But he learned to do carpentry, tear down houses, and he trained as an electrician under a relative who was a master electrician. Then he worked at a skyscraper style office building for a contract crew running wire through conduit all day. He climbed ladders all day and ran wire and hooked it up in the junction boxes. It was easy but physical. You could do yards, too, hedge trimming and all that. If you live in an apartment, no problem, just store all your tools in a small storage unit nearby and grab them with each job. Keep a book schedule of all your clients. I think if you had to commit to something like work you would not have as much time to think and be depressed. Also, you wouldn’t be talking to people that much in these jobs. It would be easy to focus because they are very basic and you do the same routine over and over. They also pay well if you plan it right. Don’t bid the job by time but by the job intensity itself. If construction don’t include material price. Go price the materials that will be used and then have the customer go with you to buy materials. That way you don’t accidentally underbid the job. Another thing you might like is movie acting if you can memorize lines. Lots of Aspies are actors. It is competitive though and cut throat. But my husband loves doing that. You meet famous people which is cool. You can sometimes get into construction just by walking up to a construction site and asking to start out as a helper. They always need people to do cleanup or run water vacs and various odd, no skill jobs, then work your way in, and pick up skills.