I meant talking to him, convincing him, something like "I'd like to be with you, no matter if it's good or bad". It seems to me that any other person would be pleased if someone expressed a great commitment. However, the problem is that he has much more serious issue because of asperger (I don't know if I wrote it correctly), but he denies it and he is looking for a problem with me, even if most neurotypical people would behave in the same way as me and not him. But it doesn't change the fact that I don't know if going to him or starting a discussion is okay? Should I tell him how I feel about our relationship and risk a hard-built friendship or keep quiet?
The problem is also that because his father is a homophobe who doesn't believe there is such a thing as asperger syndrome, he pretends to be someone else entirely. However, he lives alone and sees his parents only occasionally. That's why I don't understand why, despite his feelings for me, he doesn't want to be with me?
My neurotypical sister says that when you open up to people, they only get a chance to hurt you more. I am afraid that, unfortunately, she is right and if I tells him, he will only yell at me. I don't know what to do because I can't live without him when he is nearby all the time but I can't be with him.