Hopefully I can update this thread if/when I find happiness again

[Cloudracer]

I just want the nightmares to end. Feel joy again

My life went from 1 on 4 to 0 on 4 in January

I'm fearing a -1 on 4

1 Serious problems with justice
2 Lost the employment after the longest and most intense censecutive job application in my life = one of my greatest victories as without education and all was spontaneous
3 Metal band fell apart
4 Again serious problems w justice
5 Lost hope and motivation
6 Gradually depleting in crippling amounts the once-in-a-lifetime-pay-out after being hit by a car in a police chase as a cyclist
7 Therapy got unexpectedly suspended due to insurance issues
8 Drinking problems resulted in consecutive serious injuries which pain worsened the depression - as a haemophiliac
9 A live above a festive bar. We get heatwaves
10 I have been waiting for months now to discover whether or not I might go to prison even though I collaborated on excessive levels with the justice system. At least this time they now know I have autism.

I'm done. In the 'I'm exasperated' I-give-up sense. I just can't handle much more.

I can barely believe how deeply I mess up life

With all this I couldn't find a therapist. I felt excruciatingly alone.

One positive thing happened: the invalidity insurance accepted me in record time and are going to calculate how much income I have a right on.

I'm writing this in case my life improves I can tell I'm smiling again.

And perhaps someone can relate.

You never know...

 

[All-Rounder]

Perhaps it's time to get a lawyer session so you can ask more questions about what you are legally against and see what you should not be worrying about.

 

[Rodafina]

One sure thing about life is that it is always changing and as long as we are alive, there is a chance that we will smile again even when that day seems so far away. I hope you get to that day soon, but in the mean time, may you find resilience, learning, patience, and hope.