I was diagnosed when I was young and spent the majority of my school years learning how to be more mainstream. For the most part, I've been very successful and have a few (only 2) close friends and a few people who I can maybe call a friend on a day where I'm feeling exceptionally self aware. I've only been in one relationship, but I've been with people physically with no problem. I've even made it in the military (with some difficulties, but farely easy). But over the past few years, I've been hiding my aspergers from everyone. And to make it worse, I'm beginning to have many more OCD symptoms than I have had in the past. I've gone from simple stimming (like rubbing my head in circles, which I used to keep shaved just for that purpose), to full blown complusions.
I didn't really mind this at first, but now I'm in a very serious relationship and we're about to move in together. I've only recently told her about my aspergers, and she's noticed a few of my quirks but blamed it on the military, but once we're living together, I don't think I could hide this many complusions from her. Well, a lot of them change pretty often, but some are usually the same. Like the need to fix the closet before leaving. Sometimes I have to stack things. I have to rip paper apart and then put it back together. I have to put things upside down. I have to peel off labels too. Those are pretty reliable. But sometimes I get a random one, like wanting to vacuum. Or light a cigar. Once I neededto buy something from dunkin donuts, zaxbys micdonalds and walmart that were all the same price... that one was strange.
She's always been very understanding and pacient with me and when she has witnessed something strange I do, she's pretty much just like "aw, you're so obsessive". And she deals with my aspergers extremly well during hard times when I can't really control myself, but I don't know if maybe this is too much. She's about to live with me, and hopefully one day raise a family with me. So should I put more effort into "fixing myself", or try to curb it more, or just work with her and deal with it?
I didn't really mind this at first, but now I'm in a very serious relationship and we're about to move in together. I've only recently told her about my aspergers, and she's noticed a few of my quirks but blamed it on the military, but once we're living together, I don't think I could hide this many complusions from her. Well, a lot of them change pretty often, but some are usually the same. Like the need to fix the closet before leaving. Sometimes I have to stack things. I have to rip paper apart and then put it back together. I have to put things upside down. I have to peel off labels too. Those are pretty reliable. But sometimes I get a random one, like wanting to vacuum. Or light a cigar. Once I neededto buy something from dunkin donuts, zaxbys micdonalds and walmart that were all the same price... that one was strange.
She's always been very understanding and pacient with me and when she has witnessed something strange I do, she's pretty much just like "aw, you're so obsessive". And she deals with my aspergers extremly well during hard times when I can't really control myself, but I don't know if maybe this is too much. She's about to live with me, and hopefully one day raise a family with me. So should I put more effort into "fixing myself", or try to curb it more, or just work with her and deal with it?