Baeraad
Well-Known Member
Well, I've already been posting around a bit and gotten to meet some people, but I guess I should make this official. So... hi, I'm Daniel. I'm 38 years old and have had an Aspergers diagnosis since I was about 30. I really struggled before then, because I just couldn't get my life together and I couldn't figure out why, so it felt like I was just being stupid and lazy. Having an AS diagnosis has allowed me to be on a special work program that allows me to hold a job and live at least a rudimentary life.
I've often felt like I kind of fail at being autistic, because there's this idea that it's supposed to mean being a hyper-intelligent tech-nerd who might be having some trouble with social niceties but is amazing at everything that doesn't involve people. I don't feel like I'm particularly amazing at anything - barely competent is about as high as I get when I really apply myself - and I have trouble even seeing the point of anything that doesn't involve people, while at the same time finding it draining and complicated to interact with them. I don't even have one of those super-focused interests that I know everything about. I do get really into things for short bursts of time, and I can memorise details pretty well when I apply myself, but I quickly get bored again and move on to the next momentary obsession.
I don't feel like my life is going so great at the moment (you can see this post for most of the wangsty details), and I've been feeling more and more that I have to do something to get out of the rut I've gotten myself stuck in. I thought perhaps hanging around this forum for a bit might be good as a part of that. I could use some new influences and perspectives.
I've often felt like I kind of fail at being autistic, because there's this idea that it's supposed to mean being a hyper-intelligent tech-nerd who might be having some trouble with social niceties but is amazing at everything that doesn't involve people. I don't feel like I'm particularly amazing at anything - barely competent is about as high as I get when I really apply myself - and I have trouble even seeing the point of anything that doesn't involve people, while at the same time finding it draining and complicated to interact with them. I don't even have one of those super-focused interests that I know everything about. I do get really into things for short bursts of time, and I can memorise details pretty well when I apply myself, but I quickly get bored again and move on to the next momentary obsession.
I don't feel like my life is going so great at the moment (you can see this post for most of the wangsty details), and I've been feeling more and more that I have to do something to get out of the rut I've gotten myself stuck in. I thought perhaps hanging around this forum for a bit might be good as a part of that. I could use some new influences and perspectives.