Just to reassure everyone lol that I know longer feel this way and when I did, I never actually killed anyone!
Now I see that I just did not understand emotions very well and so, my safety net, for when people were horrible to me or I just felt they were a heck of a burden to my life, but no way of getting away, I would often think: oh if only they would die and leave me alone!
Never took on any fantasies of how they would die, just die equaling: get out of my life, but I did not understand the concept.
I am terrible quick to both love and hate a person ie in the blink of an eye! My husband has said often when we are arguing (yes we do too often, sadly) that I have hatred in my eyes for him and it sort of throws me, because ok I feel hatred, but never realised it showed in my face!
Now I see that I just did not understand emotions very well and so, my safety net, for when people were horrible to me or I just felt they were a heck of a burden to my life, but no way of getting away, I would often think: oh if only they would die and leave me alone!
Never took on any fantasies of how they would die, just die equaling: get out of my life, but I did not understand the concept.
I am terrible quick to both love and hate a person ie in the blink of an eye! My husband has said often when we are arguing (yes we do too often, sadly) that I have hatred in my eyes for him and it sort of throws me, because ok I feel hatred, but never realised it showed in my face!