Storm Hess
Permanent Spaceman
In my life, I don't feel lonely or alone. Never really felt that way even when I was single. Interaction on a face-to-face, personal level, gets too draining and too involved. Life's too short for all the drama that others bring into it...so working or creating is far more satisfying than to hear what someone else thinks about the weather, who did what to whom, sports or other forms of senseless yammering. My wife and kids are enough for me to handle. Even that gets to be too much at times. ![Smile :) :)](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f642.png)
I do push myself to be uncomfortable as much as I can to further my understanding of myself and my world....even when I don't want to. When I drop off and pick the kids up from school, I try to interact when people speak to me, but most of the time, it's the other person doing all of the talking. This one guy asked me what I think about when I'm staring up at the clouds...I said, how to create clouds in 3D using programming algorithms (I still like to find different shapes as well...but I don't tell anyone else that). He went silent for a moment and then began talking about his army days. I have noticed how awkward people feel in silence. If I don't respond, they tend to interject a response and uneasily move to a different topic. I don't feel awkward in the least, I prefer it if there isn't anything worth saying. This forum is the most 'talking' that I've done in quite some time.
Though I don't interact very much, or want to go out to crowded areas, engage others with social banter or have a mate to pal around with...I'm ok with that. My mind is a fruitful playground and normally too tired after chasing the kids around.
I've noticed that I tend to sway back and forth when getting agitated or excited. Sometimes I have head ticks and noises that I make...also 'happy crab hands'...that's what my wife calls it. I seem to do crab hands the most when I wear my snow gloves during winter. The feel of the gloves makes me do crab hands...I don't know why. It can also be very difficult for me to sit still and not fidget (trips in the car are not fun). I do have a tangle with me if we're out in the car or in public...or I play with my keys if I can't find it. My wife has been extremely supportive when she sees me getting anxious and having a difficult time coping.
What is your way of coping from day-to-day pressures?
![Smile :) :)](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f642.png)
I do push myself to be uncomfortable as much as I can to further my understanding of myself and my world....even when I don't want to. When I drop off and pick the kids up from school, I try to interact when people speak to me, but most of the time, it's the other person doing all of the talking. This one guy asked me what I think about when I'm staring up at the clouds...I said, how to create clouds in 3D using programming algorithms (I still like to find different shapes as well...but I don't tell anyone else that). He went silent for a moment and then began talking about his army days. I have noticed how awkward people feel in silence. If I don't respond, they tend to interject a response and uneasily move to a different topic. I don't feel awkward in the least, I prefer it if there isn't anything worth saying. This forum is the most 'talking' that I've done in quite some time.
Though I don't interact very much, or want to go out to crowded areas, engage others with social banter or have a mate to pal around with...I'm ok with that. My mind is a fruitful playground and normally too tired after chasing the kids around.
![Smile :) :)](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f642.png)
I've noticed that I tend to sway back and forth when getting agitated or excited. Sometimes I have head ticks and noises that I make...also 'happy crab hands'...that's what my wife calls it. I seem to do crab hands the most when I wear my snow gloves during winter. The feel of the gloves makes me do crab hands...I don't know why. It can also be very difficult for me to sit still and not fidget (trips in the car are not fun). I do have a tangle with me if we're out in the car or in public...or I play with my keys if I can't find it. My wife has been extremely supportive when she sees me getting anxious and having a difficult time coping.
What is your way of coping from day-to-day pressures?