I'm fascinated by accounts like yours of other aspies relating their aspie experiences. I never knew I had Asperger's until recently. I always thought of people on the autism spectrum as being like the autistic son of a friend, a teenager who can't speak and is institutionalized. Then I read about a person with Asperger's who once seriously considered that he might be so different from others because he was from another planet and somehow wound up on earth. I was flabbergasted because when I was around 10 or 11 I had thought exactly the same thing. I thought I was the only person who had ever considered that. I began to read more about Asperger's and found that many things I had considered individual quirks unique to me were really common Ap[erger's traits. I was excited that much of my life that had been inexplicable to me began to be explicable. I'm still learning. I just learned the other day that flapping is an Asperger's trait. I had done that up until a few years ago when someone told me it was weird and I stopped (have to keep the mask on!). Your observation about your own childhood are ones I could have written myself. Thanks for sharing!Oh, it is always assumed you're doing it on purpose. Doesn't matter what it is. Pick your version of neurodiversity.
If you can't pay attention in class it is because you don't want to. If you are poor at sports it is because you are lazy and don't practice. If you can't make friends it is because you don't try and if you commit social faux pas when you try it is because you want to get attention by acting stupid. Either way, you're antisocial. That is how people are wired to think - that you are doing exactly what you want.