Yes, this could be your authentic self. You have mentioned it several times and you have highlighted that you are a writer.I just feel like I am wordy and that most of what Im saying may be a turn off.
Why not learn this from him? Sure, you got advice here, but that is from just a few autistic gentleman. Everyone is telling you that we are each different.Im trying to learn how to communicate with him so that I don’t exhaust him, if that’s happening.
It seems like your effort is being put in the wrong place. Why talk about him instead of to him? I just don’t understand.I don’t know…. Maybe I am trying too hard.
This sounds like by changing your behavior, you are eliciting the response that you want from him. That’s what I’m talking about.I do know that since I’ve taken some of the advice here, he has responded more easily to my texts. So I’m very grateful for that.
Have you read about how many autistic people spend much of their life behind a mask and the seriously detrimental effects this has over the long term? It would be the same for you in reverse. Just be yourself. If there are things to learn, learn them from this unique individual.