AuBurney Tuckerson
~GigglesTheAutisticHyena~
I don't know if I could do this anymore! I can't keep going through this stress! I know I have a roleplay addiction, but it's the only thing that calms me and helps me escape the stresses of the loud, stinky world of sensory torture I'm living in!
But there's always a problem when I get on to roleplay with a friend. They either leave early at the start of roleplay, they don't show up, or something happens to their computer. Most of the time, when I get on early, NONE of my friends are on for Feral Heart, and for Dragons Den, some may be on, but they're ALWAYS AFK.
Roleplay is the only thing I have to do on the weekends because there's nothing new on Netflix to watch, and even when I try to watch Netflix or YouTube videos, I run out of things to watch, and the noise from outside tortures me! I have to wear my earbuds all the time, so there's not much to do! I get bored easily playing videos games as I'm only by myself, and I can't go to see my RL friend anymore since my mother is working weekends now, and I have to keep my brother.
Plus, my friend is all the way in another city, and I don't want to drive that loud, rumbly car on the weekends. Roleplaying is all I have on Fridays and Saturdays, and anything else I try just gets me bored! I know I seem desperate, and the roleplay friends I do have think I'm just begging, but that's BECAUSE I HAVE ANXIETY! I can't help that, and roleplaying is the only thing that calms me because if I get bored, it turns into depression!
I always end up finding myself bored and lonely with no one to roleplay with, and I can't stand it anymore! I can't give up roleplaying altogether because it's an addiction that calms me down because I'm always stressed out!
I can't resort to drinking or smoking because I. I'm only 19, and drinking will destroy my liver, and II. smoking will destroy my lungs, and I have ENOUGH problems! I just need help! A friend? Someone? Anyone!? I'm all alone here! Every site I get on is DEAD! I join, and I'm immediately all alone, even when I TRY. It just doesn't work! I'm losing my mind here!
But there's always a problem when I get on to roleplay with a friend. They either leave early at the start of roleplay, they don't show up, or something happens to their computer. Most of the time, when I get on early, NONE of my friends are on for Feral Heart, and for Dragons Den, some may be on, but they're ALWAYS AFK.
Roleplay is the only thing I have to do on the weekends because there's nothing new on Netflix to watch, and even when I try to watch Netflix or YouTube videos, I run out of things to watch, and the noise from outside tortures me! I have to wear my earbuds all the time, so there's not much to do! I get bored easily playing videos games as I'm only by myself, and I can't go to see my RL friend anymore since my mother is working weekends now, and I have to keep my brother.
Plus, my friend is all the way in another city, and I don't want to drive that loud, rumbly car on the weekends. Roleplaying is all I have on Fridays and Saturdays, and anything else I try just gets me bored! I know I seem desperate, and the roleplay friends I do have think I'm just begging, but that's BECAUSE I HAVE ANXIETY! I can't help that, and roleplaying is the only thing that calms me because if I get bored, it turns into depression!
I always end up finding myself bored and lonely with no one to roleplay with, and I can't stand it anymore! I can't give up roleplaying altogether because it's an addiction that calms me down because I'm always stressed out!
I can't resort to drinking or smoking because I. I'm only 19, and drinking will destroy my liver, and II. smoking will destroy my lungs, and I have ENOUGH problems! I just need help! A friend? Someone? Anyone!? I'm all alone here! Every site I get on is DEAD! I join, and I'm immediately all alone, even when I TRY. It just doesn't work! I'm losing my mind here!