I'm hoping I'm posting this in a sensible place...
I have been through a difficult time lately and I was very grateful that I found here.
I'd like to express my appreciation for all of you for helping me retain my sanity. I had spend the last 5 years with my partner who I spent nearly every moment of every day with. Some people might think this is unhealthy, but he was in agreement with me, that we kept each other sane and each other were the only people we could each spend time with comfortably. He had aspergers too and meant the world to me. He died very suddenly and unexpectedly and since he has gone I feel kinda empty, which I'm guessing is to be expected. So I was not going to let myself go to pieces as he might have thought that I'd given up after all his hard work on "fixing" me, which would be bad, especially as I now have to raise our young son to be happy and healthy, so I can't let this get in the way. It wasn't his fault and if he's aware of what is going on now (I do not know what happens after death) he might feel a bit of guilt, which I would never want him to do. So I had to remain (relatively) sane and find a way of not feeling quite so alone while not having to spend time in people's company who I haven't invited into my world.
I think people in my world are either here with my approval (including people on AC), or they're uninvited which usually equates to not having my approval for them being here.
So thank you guys. You may not realise that you are helpful and special to people who you don't know, but (in a non-creepy way!) you are to me.
And I hope that doesn't come across as weird.
I have been through a difficult time lately and I was very grateful that I found here.
I'd like to express my appreciation for all of you for helping me retain my sanity. I had spend the last 5 years with my partner who I spent nearly every moment of every day with. Some people might think this is unhealthy, but he was in agreement with me, that we kept each other sane and each other were the only people we could each spend time with comfortably. He had aspergers too and meant the world to me. He died very suddenly and unexpectedly and since he has gone I feel kinda empty, which I'm guessing is to be expected. So I was not going to let myself go to pieces as he might have thought that I'd given up after all his hard work on "fixing" me, which would be bad, especially as I now have to raise our young son to be happy and healthy, so I can't let this get in the way. It wasn't his fault and if he's aware of what is going on now (I do not know what happens after death) he might feel a bit of guilt, which I would never want him to do. So I had to remain (relatively) sane and find a way of not feeling quite so alone while not having to spend time in people's company who I haven't invited into my world.
I think people in my world are either here with my approval (including people on AC), or they're uninvited which usually equates to not having my approval for them being here.
So thank you guys. You may not realise that you are helpful and special to people who you don't know, but (in a non-creepy way!) you are to me.
And I hope that doesn't come across as weird.