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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    Have to buy a new keyboard. This machine is used for gaming, so obviously I want that sort. But... what the heck happened? Modern gaming keyboards look like fragile, incomplete prototypes that are missing their shells. Like keyboard skeletons. And they are ALL like this. As compared to the bulky, sturdy mass that is my previous one. This search is already really irritating.
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    Misery
    Misery
    @Metalhead I definitely agree with them. Particularly since I mostly play indie games. But some things just dont work with that (well, not if I dont want to go insane).
    Misery
    Misery
    @Outdated Generally gaming keyboards are focused on accuracy, better ability to handle many keys pressed/held at the same time, and reduction of input lag. I am particularly sensitive to input lag to the point where 3-4 frames of it (unnoticeable to most people) will drive me crazy. I can't not notice that. So for me, an office keyboard just wont do.
    maycontainthunder
    maycontainthunder
    Have a look at Corsair's range. Currently I'm using a slightly elderly K95 which works well. Don't know what the lag is but my brain isn't quick enough to notice!
    Misery
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    Here's an ominous photo for you. I forgot I took this. An unexpected moment here at home a few months ago.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    this is a picture you took? :) It is amazing.
    Misery
    Misery
    It was also very LOUD. A lot of high pitched shrieking and flashing.
    Misery
    So, I've got a long, immediately noticeable scar on my left arm now... the result of that big anxiety attack I had. Since I've been so perpetually stressed over... you know... THAT issue... it leaves me prone to much worse anxiety than I'd otherwise have. "The Talk" would end it. But I keep pushing it off, so now I get to have this reminder of that extended mistake. Sooner or later I need to just DO this already.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Oh boy. Your anxiety is making this worse. Maybe imagine the worse that will happen if you disclose and have the "talk". This is how l get thru the horrible things l can't face. If you aknowledge the worse that may happen, then you can accept the reality if it did happen. Your parents seem to be very loving. If they love you, they will accept you just as you are.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Good luck Misery, l have faith in you that you can get thru this. I understand that it maybe the hardest thing you have ever faced. But people do get thru things. And sometimes our mind can blow it out of proportion. I am very guilty of that.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    "The Talk" would end it.
    Click to expand...
    You said it yourself.
    You know what to do.
    Here for you.

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    Misery
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    Misery
    Misery
    "@Luca, figured you'd like this. Recently, a fearless fawn appeared in my fenced yard. Cooper, my dog, always chases deer. This time, he got close. Nothing happened. All this at the lake house; deer are everywhere here, sometimes 5 or so in the yard at once."
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Too cute, so sweet.
    All-Rounder
    All-Rounder
    Those flower buds are so precious, especially since I know how pretty the flowers are once they bloom, ones of my favorites.
    Qoyote
    okay, you know a lot about video games, why do so many top-rated games just look like slightly interactive movies? why are they being rated so high as games?
    Misery
    Misery
    To answer, I sent you a direct message just now, rather than make a choppy mess with this weird super short post system.
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    They aren't being rated high "as games", they are being rated high in terms of how much the reviewer enjoys going through them. I like several of them for what it's worth.
    Misery
    Well the accursed fireworks seem to finally be done now, after SO MUCH of it yesterday. The nasty part is, the area's big fireworks event happens literally across the street from the house and down the road just a bit. You can watch the whole thing from the kitchen. So you can imagine how much noise we get during the main display. Which just... kept... going.
    mysterionz
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    VictorR
    My strawberry candies were white/translucent.
    Misery
    Misery
    I dont think I've ever seen the packaged strawberry things before. That red thing looks familiar though.
    Misery
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    Classic gaming with romhacks recently. Final Fantasy 4, I always wanted to like, but it was so stupidly easy that I just got bored of it. The "upgraded" version lacks that problem and primarily consists of me yelling things at the screen. In the screenshot, getting completely mangled by whatever that is. I hadnt realized this genre could be such fun, if given real challenge.
    Misery

    I just found this guy's channel, these are freaking hilarious. And darned impressive. I'd love to learn how to make stuff like this. Blender, really, there's so many reasons for me to learn that at some point.
    Misery
    So I realized suddenly that I made a big mistake. I switched my Xbox username to “Sophie Carre”. I did not think that through. i told a couple of friends just now that I have the console, and… Yeah, they’re going to ask the name of the new account. Almost guaranteed chance that the gender thing is going to be outed to them in the next day or two. Yay, anxiety spike…. Also iPad typing BAH.
    Misery
    Will be gone for a couple of days. Going to the lake house for the weekend and trying to type using the iPad brings only madness and tragedy. If anyone needs to say anything to me in that time, I will notice DMs. Probably. Internet is wobbly up there.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    I hope you have a really good time at the lake :)
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Yes! Finally getting there. Bon voyage.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    Hope you have a good time!
    WiffingWaffles
    Oi, good afternoon, i trust you're doing well?
    Misery
    Misery
    I'm technically functioning, sorta. I let myself get dehydrated again, I cant think straight when that happens. I dont know what else to say, it's hard to communicate when I'm in this state.
    WiffingWaffles
    WiffingWaffles
    oh mai, is it some habits you have developed over the years
    Misery
    Misery
    It's sort of an odd sensory thing. Where it's like, I'm thirsty, but I somehow just... dont notice for awhile. Happens with hunger too, I'll be going fine, and then UUUUGH super hungry, I didnt notice, should have eaten two hours ago
    Misery
    In gaming news, Diablo 4 is about to release. It's been like 5 billionty years since 3 came out (I was there for launch day at Gamestop, I won a standee in a contest I didnt know I was in, I was quite confused, everyone else in the place was quite disappointed). And now 4 is here.
    One of those things that just seemed like it'd never just show up already.
    Misery
    4 hour drawing session. Ouch, ouch, ouch. So close to finishing the best thing I've ever made. Wanted to really use proper perspective, so I finally decided to draw a character (same pink haired girl with the black braids from before) at an angle that isnt straight on, and more than just the face, and in a different pose. Didnt think I could do it. DID IT ANYWAY. I'll show that tomorrow probably. Ouch.
    Misery
    Decided to try again at having The Talk this coming weekend. One way or another, I cant keep up my current state. It has started to affect my health. At this point the things keeping me going are my stubbornness and absolute refusal to lose. Even with no energy left, and despite the anxiety, I *will* achieve this goal.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Good luck Misery, maybe it truly is time to say something. Maybe get them together? Rehearse in front of the mirror. Map out exactly how you will say it, remember deliver with confidence, and be prepared for questions they may ask. This maybe a big life hurdle, but l bet you can do this now.
    tree
    tree
    @Misery
    Does it have to be one huge *hey I'm not who you thought I was* revelation talk all at once?
    Can it be delivered in small increments?
    Misery
    Misery
    @tree it is going to sorta be done in small increments, yeah. Something I've learned with big revelations to people (including telling them about autism) is that I often need to divide it up, so it's like "today here's the most important part, we can talk about more details in the days ahead". That's what I'm planning on doing.
    Misery
    Okay well I'm not going up north after all. Still sorta coming down from the worst breakdown I've ever had. Normally I manage to hide these incidents but this time my control completely broke while I wasnt alone. Dont worry, I'm fine, aside from the gash on my arm. I'll post about this later. There's things to talk about, and questions to ask.
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    Hang in there Sophia.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry Sophia. Hope you can pull thru this. We are hitting warm 80+ near Anna Marie. My mom closed their 2nd scuba shop there, because they will be building a new bridge to connect and the traffic will be horrendous. I think it starts in 2024 on the Cortez side.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Thinking of you, Sophie. Wishing you well. Wishing you strength. Wishing you peace.
    Misery
    Just want to say, I'm probably not going to be around over the next few days most likely. Going up north, usually I still interact with the forum and such even without my usual PC, but this time I'm just too drained and messed up. Yeah, it's been bad lately. So, radio silence for a bit, I think. But I'll still check and respond to any direct messages.
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    Wolfnox
    Just got over a serious depression myself. Avoid news and really loud people.
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