Why does it have to be so hard to tell people things? Or ask for help? I'm so freaking frustrated with myself at this point. In other news, I clawed at my arm again.
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Amalga Heart 44 From Big stupid hole in the ground (Illinois)
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Honestly really pleased with my progress so far, with art overall. I'm getting the hang of my own general style (whatever it might be called), drawing things at odd angles, and doing this MUCH faster and with fewer errors. Feeling good about it for the first time, really. The rest of that picture will be a challenge, but I think I can do it.
Lilith from Binding of Isaac, leaping to avoid a monster attack coming from behind. This came out pretty much perfect, exactly as I'd envisioned it. Still need her horns, and an ornate pattern on the box. This is only a small part of the picture though. Monster (the Scourge), background with fully detailed walls, full shading... Gonna take awhile.
This is called "Veiled Existence"
Also, freakin' ouch. I've got to stop doing these in a single sitting. But once an idea hits me it's like I gotta get it onto paper quick or it'll fly away or something.Alright I'm back, I've snapped out of that reverie. This happens every year as winter gets going, anything that was bothering me already just... multiplies for a time and I just collapse in on myself. I'm not exactly back to 100% yet, but I also currently dont feel like stabbing anything, so that's a start.Might vanish or go silent for awhile here. The accursed gender thing is driving me up the wall lately, mood and such is really messed up. Can’t deal with people well when I get into this state so I tend to retreat and hide for a time. Not much else to say.
And here's my newest weird thing, whatever it is. These can be so convoluted to make, I had to use four separate programs to make this.
Made this fractal bubble thing today.I’ll never understand why anyone likes tablets or phones… stuck with this stupid thing for the weekend and I loathe it with a passion. I haven’t thrown it at the wall yet though, so there’s that.
This is my newest bit of digital art. This took like all day to make. It is a fractal. I dont know what else to say about it.
Drew this today, trying for a full-body shot of her reaching for this gold idol thing. Facing directly right, practiced that view. However when I tried the zoomed out view the pencil lines were too thick, regardless of sharpening. Settled for a close-up. What do you think?Ya know, it's more than a tad irritating when I'm in the mood to make something over at my art table, but I can't, because of chronic pain. Arm & shoulder movements is generally what is involved here. Today is one of those days. Bah. Time to go take more Advil.Thought I was going to be extremely sore all day today after a lot of drawing and such yesterday, but that didnt stick. I'm finally at a position where I can, you know, DO things more often. Without physically wrecking myself in the process. Of course now I have to actually decide on what to do, that's the hard part.
Made this today. My grandmother (on my stepmother's side) passed away last night... I was asked to make this. It will be displayed during the funeral, and then placed in the casket. Didnt exactly enjoy making this. But I think I made good use of my new Posca markers for the highlights. I'll have to remember that technique for future projects.
Found this on Youtube randomly.
Found this in a box recently... I was so sure I had lost it.So, I got my keyboard. I got quickly fed up with trying to decide amongst the confusing array of new options (seriously I'm not good with hardware at all) so I decided to just get another of the one I had before. The original Razer Blackwidow Chroma, the big bulky one. Barely got my hands on one, these aint made anymore.Have to buy a new keyboard. This machine is used for gaming, so obviously I want that sort. But... what the heck happened? Modern gaming keyboards look like fragile, incomplete prototypes that are missing their shells. Like keyboard skeletons. And they are ALL like this. As compared to the bulky, sturdy mass that is my previous one. This search is already really irritating.
Here's an ominous photo for you. I forgot I took this. An unexpected moment here at home a few months ago.So, I've got a long, immediately noticeable scar on my left arm now... the result of that big anxiety attack I had. Since I've been so perpetually stressed over... you know... THAT issue... it leaves me prone to much worse anxiety than I'd otherwise have. "The Talk" would end it. But I keep pushing it off, so now I get to have this reminder of that extended mistake. Sooner or later I need to just DO this already. -
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