• Feeling isolated? You're not alone.

    Join 20,000+ people who understand exactly how your day went. Whether you're newly diagnosed, self-identified, or supporting someone you love – this is a space where you don't have to explain yourself.

    Join the Conversation → It's free, anonymous, and supportive.

    As a member, you'll get:

    • A community that actually gets it – no judgment, no explanations needed
    • Private forums for sensitive topics (hidden from search engines)
    • Real-time chat with others who share your experiences
    • Your own blog to document your journey

    You've found your people. Create your free account

Hazel_1914

Hazel_1914

V.I.P Member
Well-Known Member 28
Joined
Last seen
Messages
2,639
Media
1
Blogs
1
Reactions
9,842
Points
313

Profile posts Latest activity Postings Blogs Media Albums About

  • Hazel_1914
    I went to a coffee shop today & wrote until I ran out of paper, and one of my fountain-pens had run entirely out of ink. A good day.
    Hazel_1914
    The landlady must never know I am autistic. I wish I knew how to make an effective boundary.
    View previous comments…
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    But the whole dynamic upstairs bothers me; I feel like they want me as a temporary family member or a sort of exotic pet? Or at least the landlady. Worst of all she's faculty at the college so -- I have to avoid any ruffling of the feathers on Minerva's owl here. So you can guess this is weird
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    Anyhow @crewlucca_ good luck concealing all the sensitive stuff from neighbors. It can be tricky. Let's keep on keeping on & I wish you a merry Christmas and a happy New Year. (Solstice is the 21st; I shall keep it by standing in the moonlight and frightening unsuspecting motorists with an unhinged stare.)
    L
    Luca
    It is hard to hide… So far most of them have assumed I’m male, so I don’t bring up that I was ever otherwise. But some of them seem suspicious :/ Or they just don’t use pronouns at all.
    Your landlady doesn’t seem very nice :( Her unsolicited gifts sound kind of creepy.
    I wish you good luck too. And Merry Christmas to you too!! :) I enjoy talking to you on here. - Luca
    Hazel_1914
    I want to go outside and stand on my head for awhile.
    tree
    tree
    That made a picture in my head of a person whose head is on the ground and he's managed to place both feet on his head. I believe you were talking about doing a headstand, though....
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    Oh! That's what it's called.
    If I managed to roll up into a hoop like that though---I'm not that flexible.
    Hazel_1914
    Signed up to enter counseling/therapy. If I don't maintain the brain then who am I to blame when it quits? Time for fixing it.
    View previous comments…
    L
    Luca
    Yes, I get that… I don’t like feeling like a burden either :(
    And the paperwork is a huge pain in the rear. Do you have anyone who can help you with it?
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    I will see. I think the paperwork won't be too bad once I get the knack of it.
    L
    Luca
    I think so! Glad you were able to give yourself that confidence boost :)
    Hazel_1914
    It's almost 2 AM and I'm up listening to Franz von Suppe and writing about Indians in the Rockies. I should sleep more!
    Hazel_1914
    Working like mad to wrap up finals & listening to old marches & band records on the Edison cylinder phonograph -- chaotic productivity lol
    L
    Luca
    That does sound chaotic lol, but if it helps you focus, that’s a good thing :)
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    It was very chaotic but I was writing fast. I then ran out of cylinders & fired up the big Edison Diamond Disc phonograph on the other side of the room--which was full of jazz records from the '20s. Kept on going.
    Hazel_1914
    After months' worrying--I found out I can get a buttonholer for my sewing machine for less than $20. Looks like I finally get good shirts.
    L
    Luca
    Do you sew your own clothes?? That’s amazing!
    I can’t sew without stabbing myself lol. :p
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    I'm working on teaching myself to do a better job. I like old styles you can't get any more, have little money, hate fast-fashion and sweatshop labor, and can fix machinery. Hence the antique sewing machine.

    It isn't too hard to sew really. It's fun.
    Butterfly88
    Butterfly88
    Cool!
    Hazel_1914
    Within the last week I've ended up with a girlfriend and an offer of a $20/hour job. This will take time to process.
    View previous comments…
    L
    Luca
    I’m sorry :( What do you think is not right with the situation?
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    Mostly my mindset @crewlucca_ -- Nothing to do with job or girl but everything to do with my complete, debilitating fear of asking for help.
    L
    Luca
    :( I know asking for help is hard. I’m here if you need support
    Hazel_1914
    Trying something different today & going to mass at a different parish. It'll be nice to maybe make friends
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    Update. It was nice. Didn't make any new friends but it was in a great town that's definitely bicycling distance and I am going to heaad down there & try socializing more as soon as college & bicycle repairs permit.
    Hazel_1914
    I moved! Going back soon to rescue the old pump organ and the victrola but other than that GOODBYE FOREVER cityscape from Hades.
    Hazel_1914
    I must stay productive today. It's getting harder. My attention span is down to about 3 to 5 seconds.
    W
    watersprite
    Know how you feel. Hope you are able to move through it okay.
    Hazel_1914
    I'm MOVING and I'm excited--
    unperson
    unperson
    Exciting news G.
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    It's the news that might save my attempt at college. Moving underneath an old house--ASAP. Just gotta finish midterms & pack my trunks
    unperson
    unperson
    underneath as in basement? sounds nice and quiet.
    Hazel_1914
    Life is making me tired. I'm about this close to being done with the nonsense--Is there a fast-forward button?
    View previous comments…
    L
    Luca
    Sorry you're feeling this way right now... I really struggle to put my thoughts into words too. I feel like I'm always spamming the forum with useless rambles :( But I find your posts really informative and helpful! And you have a great sense of humor!!
    L
    Luca
    Also, feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to, I can be useful sometimes (I think) lol... and I just like to help!!
    smilie
    smilie
    aww im sorry gerontius i know how you feel that happens to me sometimes too its ok take all the time that you need ok
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
Top Bottom