I think of suicide as a sin but sometimes i cannot help but feel like it would be good if i get sick with a terminal illness and die soon.
I sometimes feel all alone in the Earth, no mother and father who is there for me. No friends who see the real me and support me.
My therapist did not put up an appointment for me, and i think we are on bad terms now.
I was happy because i had a crush on someone, and i could see them on weekends.
But now i will probably never see him again.
That smallest piece of connection will soon disappear too. When he noticed that i was sad that day, i was so happy. I was so happy i started crying. Felt like someone cared about me. Now it is disappearing too.
I did not receive the things other people took for granted and were automatically given. I am trying to not wish illness on myself, but it is hard to be alive. I can't bear the pain anymore
I sometimes feel all alone in the Earth, no mother and father who is there for me. No friends who see the real me and support me.
My therapist did not put up an appointment for me, and i think we are on bad terms now.
I was happy because i had a crush on someone, and i could see them on weekends.
But now i will probably never see him again.
That smallest piece of connection will soon disappear too. When he noticed that i was sad that day, i was so happy. I was so happy i started crying. Felt like someone cared about me. Now it is disappearing too.
I did not receive the things other people took for granted and were automatically given. I am trying to not wish illness on myself, but it is hard to be alive. I can't bear the pain anymore
