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Mental Auto-Pilot

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I think I am stuck on mental auto-pilot as far as trying to live. The auto-pilot is survival or maybe, more specifically, existing. No matter if I am in a bad situation or not, I treat it as a bad situation by default. And just go through my habitual motions. Ignoring reality and life.

I am now to the point where I'll have moments of focus, but they shut off pretty quickly and I go into auto-pilot. Just assuming I know what to do, when I don't. And if something is the opposite of what my auto-pilot tells me, I freeze up and panic.

This is problem needs to be fixed. I don't auto-pilot anything productive. I auto-pilot negative daily habits and shut out all else.

No wonder it comes off as I 'know better than anyone else'. Even though I don't.

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