I came to university in September 2015, and if there was one thing I wasn't expecting, it was to meet the perfect girl for me.
She loves football, video games, The 1975, near enough the same things. She is incredibly pretty, and just her smile makes me feel funny. She's always on my mind and I just can't stop thinking about her.
There's only one issue - she only sees us as friends.
I met this girl last year after she joined my course late, and she instantly took my attention away from the first lecture that she walked into. She added me on Facebook and we started talking, just every detail about her was incredible.
The one thing that made me feel great talking to her, was that she was so accepting of my Asperger's, and that has never happened to me before. I'm usually scared if people will treat me differently and usually people start to act differently around me when I finally have the confidence to tell someone this information.
But not her, she was the first people who actually encouraged me to embrace it.
Yet everything changed when I finally asked her out. That's where things started to go wrong.
The problem I have faced my whole life is that there is someone better and more compatible than me. This was the one moment I didn't want this to happen.
But it still did. The other guy, who played sports and was good with words, used her and just pushed her aside after a few weeks of seeing each other.
It sent me in a weird state of emotions that I didn't understand. I didn't know how to deal with it, so I just went home. Missed the last week of my first year and moved out early.
It took me a whole summer to eventually get over her, we barely spoke while we were apart.
But second year has provided a different experience and definitely more confusing times with her....
She loves football, video games, The 1975, near enough the same things. She is incredibly pretty, and just her smile makes me feel funny. She's always on my mind and I just can't stop thinking about her.
There's only one issue - she only sees us as friends.
I met this girl last year after she joined my course late, and she instantly took my attention away from the first lecture that she walked into. She added me on Facebook and we started talking, just every detail about her was incredible.
The one thing that made me feel great talking to her, was that she was so accepting of my Asperger's, and that has never happened to me before. I'm usually scared if people will treat me differently and usually people start to act differently around me when I finally have the confidence to tell someone this information.
But not her, she was the first people who actually encouraged me to embrace it.
Yet everything changed when I finally asked her out. That's where things started to go wrong.
The problem I have faced my whole life is that there is someone better and more compatible than me. This was the one moment I didn't want this to happen.
But it still did. The other guy, who played sports and was good with words, used her and just pushed her aside after a few weeks of seeing each other.
It sent me in a weird state of emotions that I didn't understand. I didn't know how to deal with it, so I just went home. Missed the last week of my first year and moved out early.
It took me a whole summer to eventually get over her, we barely spoke while we were apart.
But second year has provided a different experience and definitely more confusing times with her....
