CheeseBlues
New Member
I have been working for Starbucks for a while now. It's a pretty cool job I guess, I like making drinks and cleaning/stocking. Sometimes making drinks is too much for me though, I have been getting sensory overload really bad, especially when there is a rush. There's nothing I can do to escape those situations and I end up extremely frustrated and thinking about death.. And when on bar or register people are always staring at you and trying to talk to you and it makes me so uncomfortable.
My pain fluctuates throughout the day, but its always worse when I have to work. I try to ignore it but sometimes its hard.. it makes me want to just sit down and cry because it hurts so bad and I'm so tired of being strong...
I have taken less hours at work and I regret to admit that it may have been a mistake. It's better for my mental health, but I can't save up money anymore. I can hardly afford to exist for 2 weeks on the paychecks I get, let alone go to the hospital when I need to. .. I'm going ot have to start working more so I can get a car and be able to get a new job, but working 8 hour shifts always kills me... I'm scared that I'm going to have a breakdown if I force myself to go through this, but I don't feel like I have any other choice. I don't know what to do, I really wish I could have a caregiver or something I'm so bad with all of this adult stuff, but I don't know if that's possible. Especially since i don't have money.
My pain fluctuates throughout the day, but its always worse when I have to work. I try to ignore it but sometimes its hard.. it makes me want to just sit down and cry because it hurts so bad and I'm so tired of being strong...
I have taken less hours at work and I regret to admit that it may have been a mistake. It's better for my mental health, but I can't save up money anymore. I can hardly afford to exist for 2 weeks on the paychecks I get, let alone go to the hospital when I need to. .. I'm going ot have to start working more so I can get a car and be able to get a new job, but working 8 hour shifts always kills me... I'm scared that I'm going to have a breakdown if I force myself to go through this, but I don't feel like I have any other choice. I don't know what to do, I really wish I could have a caregiver or something I'm so bad with all of this adult stuff, but I don't know if that's possible. Especially since i don't have money.