I don't know... real motivation... I like to do certain things, and I probably might hope to keep them up for a while, but with that, comes that actually have to struggle to keep liking them even. I don't know if that's an aspie thing as such, so the claim that aspies might not have a lot of motivation in life... I don't know if it's actually for being an aspie.
Looking at myself, I can hardly get excited over things, I know when I do, and how it feels, but the feeling slips away to easy. It's there for a short moment, and I don't know if motivation should be to chase the moment. If I'm chasing the moment, I'm feeling I'm forcing myself to stay motivated... but for what? To chase the moment? It needs a goal and being on the move so to say isn't really a goal I feel... those should be means, not ends.
In my life I had my share of interests, for which I could stay motivated... but at some point I was like "is this all?". Alongside that, I found motivation and drive in things in life, but I was told that these are really terrible goals. That kinda put me on the spot where I was being either told that I can't chase my personal goals as such and/or that I should aspire different goals... and that kills my motivation.
Let's look at a few examples;
Being in a band is fun... most of the time. Playing gigs and all is all fine and dandy, however, with that, you HAVE to progress and get your name out there, and play internationally. I have no intention to do so. I don't like travels and I don't like selling out just to earn more money over it. If anything that's NOT my goal. But then it's not viable, so it's not a good goal. My motivation however for whatever hobby I have however is related to how much time I have for it. Back then I wasn't in school for most part and spent roughly 20 hours a day writing stuff, mainting the website, fleshing out new concepts, all without the concept of "I have to earn money of this"... because I felt it should be fun and on a voluntary basis.
As a teen I once imagined that I'd like to become leader of a doomsday cult... yeah, you read it right
in general stuff like that fascinated me back then (does to some extent now), but talking to a career counselor that idea got shot down pretty fast. So there was no motivation nor interest for me to pursue those things. I was a teen and a bit more naive then, so sometimes when people told me not to, I tried to get it out of my head... this was one of those cases.
Years ago when I had a job, money was my motivation. It was the sole reason I worked 40 hours, and eventually worked 50 at some weeks. I had goals in mind, stuff I wanted to buy. That new tv looks fancy, I want one... and as such I shall work for it. That's a decent mindset I guess. But more and more I didn't care for money, as after about 6 months I felt that the mental agony the job gave me couldn't be satisfied with the money I made. I spend my entire paycheck on things I liked to keep happy and sane. Then I went to work less hours and felt more happy. Surely it was at the expense of less money a week, but I figured out that I need my personal time and space a lot. But if you look at it this way... if you're in need of 24 hours of personal time, to stay motivated for personal goals in life, you're not living a "wealthy" life, unless you're a millionaire. (and in the end it might impose a problem on motivation since you lack finances to do stuff to keep you happy)
Currently, in my situation I can't even find motivation to get "old". I'm not suicidal, nor do I want to die right now. But I have a hard time grasping the concept on why I should stick around for this long. I do have motivation for personal goals, but none of them include living a healthy and long life. Chances are if I discuss this with a therapist they'll tell me that those outlooks are equally "bad".
As for now... am I motivated? It comes and goes... and I'm only talking about a single personal project I'm working on. It's a balancing act for me to stay motivated to do it. I know that the more I work on X, the more I can get into X again. It's also why I rather split up a project in parts instead of 1 big thing. Makes it easier to catch up if you lost motivation and track a bit.