Hello
Hope I am not a time waster. I am in the UK
I have had two asperger's tests one in 2006 and one in 2015, I stupidly used drugs at the time of both interviews.
I taught myself to read as a toddler but gave up because my Dad was narcissistic and his approval was more important.
I can sing perfect pitch.
I cant recognise faces I am face blind.
I lost the letter from 2015 telling me that I did not have Aspergers but GP emailed me a copy to day.
It says I can socially function and have empathy, but I don't.
I was on poly drugs when doing the interviews with the autism assessor and alcohol.
I used drugs to cope with difficult life socially.
I am useless socially bullied, no friends, abused but not blaming anyone its the choices I made.
I cannot cope with the demands of being a neurotypical, but I don't know if I will be allowed a third one.
The letter says I have social imagination, good gestures and eye contact but I think this is because I was high when I was interviewed.
Trouble holding jobs down and exopoited and vulnerable.
I rock back and forth and move different parts of my body repeatedly, this was not asked in the interview.
It says I don't have rituals, I live in chaos cos of depression due to major property issues in my life. I am tapering off valium was on 75mg now on 28.
The prescription is prescribed but it started as illicit.
I wasn't asked loads of questions in the interview.
It says I don't have special interests but I did have peculiar special interests, now I am obsessed with my flat as it is leasehold and private and has major problems and that has taken over.
I repeatedly play boring computer games.
I don't know what I will do if they refuse to asses me or if they give me do and give me a diagnosis of non Aspergers as I just cannot cope trying to be a neuro typical.
I can draw photo realistically.
I can sing perfect pictch.
I have a strabismus like a lot of Aspergers
I am clumsy.
I was not thinking straight when I got assessed in 2015, the valium I am on is not affecting me, I take no other drugs I don't drink and for the first time in my life I am seeing myself for who I really am.
What will I do if I fail to get a diagnosis, I am 53?
Hope someone can help.
Thanks for reading.
Hope I am not a time waster. I am in the UK
I have had two asperger's tests one in 2006 and one in 2015, I stupidly used drugs at the time of both interviews.
I taught myself to read as a toddler but gave up because my Dad was narcissistic and his approval was more important.
I can sing perfect pitch.
I cant recognise faces I am face blind.
I lost the letter from 2015 telling me that I did not have Aspergers but GP emailed me a copy to day.
It says I can socially function and have empathy, but I don't.
I was on poly drugs when doing the interviews with the autism assessor and alcohol.
I used drugs to cope with difficult life socially.
I am useless socially bullied, no friends, abused but not blaming anyone its the choices I made.
I cannot cope with the demands of being a neurotypical, but I don't know if I will be allowed a third one.
The letter says I have social imagination, good gestures and eye contact but I think this is because I was high when I was interviewed.
Trouble holding jobs down and exopoited and vulnerable.
I rock back and forth and move different parts of my body repeatedly, this was not asked in the interview.
It says I don't have rituals, I live in chaos cos of depression due to major property issues in my life. I am tapering off valium was on 75mg now on 28.
The prescription is prescribed but it started as illicit.
I wasn't asked loads of questions in the interview.
It says I don't have special interests but I did have peculiar special interests, now I am obsessed with my flat as it is leasehold and private and has major problems and that has taken over.
I repeatedly play boring computer games.
I don't know what I will do if they refuse to asses me or if they give me do and give me a diagnosis of non Aspergers as I just cannot cope trying to be a neuro typical.
I can draw photo realistically.
I can sing perfect pictch.
I have a strabismus like a lot of Aspergers
I am clumsy.
I was not thinking straight when I got assessed in 2015, the valium I am on is not affecting me, I take no other drugs I don't drink and for the first time in my life I am seeing myself for who I really am.
What will I do if I fail to get a diagnosis, I am 53?
Hope someone can help.
Thanks for reading.