So there has been some confusion lately concerning my attempts at learning tech. A front end language always seemed like the most logical place to start, yet I would feel too bored and restless to concentrate on the lessons. Oddly enough, I was flying right through a course that taught ethical hacking until I hit the paywall and had actually found the course quite addictive. Similarly I had previously studied a computer science course that starts with bits and bytes and how and why they work. I found that course engaging as well and had advanced far enough to correctly explain why an imaginary electronically operated train had derailed by viewing the code which was in 1s and 0s.

I eventually quit that one not because of a lack of interest but due to feeling like it was pointless due to not knowing where the code is actually input and perhaps also feeling as though it was perhaps useless without other coding languages. I had been simultaneously studying JavaScript from two different sources. One of those sources had kept me more engaged due to it's gamified lesson format with short completable challenges, but sadly the app was discontinued.

The other program felt tedious and while it was thrilling to first see an image that I had coded pop onto the screen, I just couldn't keep at it. Additionally, some of my code built drawings were rather pathetic. It's kind of weird trying to draw something blind. It's like the computer age version of trying to draw a sketch with pen a paper with a blindfold on only now you have to write a lengthy paragraph in order to do it. Anyway, I have been researching why this could be and apparently some people do actually learn better in this seemingly backwards manner due to high levels of curiosity and a drive to understand the hows and whys of a system.
I find this quite interesting because I'm not sure where I fit.
I have almost never been able to be taught. Actually, I can learn, I just can't be taught so class room learning is a major killer for me. I have always suffered a debilitating fear of any teacher. Also, my mental processing is too slow for any classroom. I was diagnosed as mentally retarded with major learning disabilities.
Thus, a college degree was never an option for me, yet I retired as a senior electronics design engineer - something that a degree is a hard requirement for. I never attended any electronics or engineering classes. I started learning for my career as a young child due to an unyielding passion for all things electronic. I learned by dissecting discarded radios, TV, anything electronic. I removed all the parts and experimented with them, learning what they did and how they did what they did. I also studied physics and electronic theory books from the library. I built circuits using all the scavenged parts as part of my "learning" /
entertainment. It was / is an overwhelming obsession.
I could only get low level jobs, but at almost every job, I would design and build circuits to add to whatever equipment the job used to make it work better. This was both a problem and benefit. It did build a reputation and at the last few jobs; engineers from the engineering departments started sneaking down to ask me questions on electronics theory. They would bring their design schematics for my opinions.
Eventually, I got a low level job at a contract electronics design firm. I was very enthralled at working at a design firm even though I wasn't an engineer. My excitement, however almost got me fired because I started pointing out design flaws in their designs. The boss (business owner) was working on a project that he was having a really hard time with. As I passed by his desk and casually ask how it was going, he expressed his difficulty in keeping the processor stable. I quickly pointed out that he needed a bypass capacitor and pointed out on the schematic where to put it. Then I rushed off to get one from the parts room and brought it back. He seemed irritated at wasting the time with something from a non-engineer, but he did it anyway. He tack soldered the capacitor in, turned it on and it worked perfectly. He looked at me with open-mouth disbelief and slowly exclaimed that he had been trying to solve that issue for two weeks. With more and more of that happening, I was eventually promoted to engineer and then finally senior electronics design engineer. My life goal with no classroom or educational credentials.
So, I guess I got an education, it just wasn't by any classical, typical classroom method.
I'm not sure, was this top down or bottom up?