AuroraBorealis
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To those of you who feel like they have a smaller battery (figuratively) than others: Does that frustrate you? What do you think/how do you feel about that? Do you just accept it, or does it make you angry or sad? Do you see anything positive about that?
I don't mean just social capacity. I mean generally. Since I can remember, I feel like I have always had a smaller battery that would affect me particularly when it included other people, but I also noticed it when it was just me.
Family holidays, school trips, summer camps, internships, work, etc. - at a certain point, I'd get exhausted, irritable, but also start feeling sick physically and would NEED a certain amount of time by myself with no program or socialising. I notice this also now that I work, even though it's part-time now. I get sick more often than others, with often unspecified symptoms that knock me out for a few days. It's usually some nausea, maybe a sore throat, some dizziness, and especially an intense desire to spend a (few) day(s) with no external tasks and by myself. The symptoms disappear shortly after I gave in and took some time off. It's like every few weeks, my body and mind say "okay, need a break now whether you like it or not", which I can't ignore.
Others often say to "push through", but as long as I can remember, that didn't work for me because at some (early) point, my body would start developing symptoms that made me feel as though I was sick, and if I'd ignore them, I'd feel as though I'd pass out, or start crying violently.
It would happen every time. An example when it didn't involve other people was when I worked on the dog farm for 2 months and had lots of alone time, peace and quiet. Still, after a few weeks, I got nauseated one day for no reason and felt the intense need to have a day off, otherwise I'd start crying and sort of melt down for no reason.
I struggle to not think of myself as weak because of it.
Do you experience this too? How does it make you feel?
I don't mean just social capacity. I mean generally. Since I can remember, I feel like I have always had a smaller battery that would affect me particularly when it included other people, but I also noticed it when it was just me.
Family holidays, school trips, summer camps, internships, work, etc. - at a certain point, I'd get exhausted, irritable, but also start feeling sick physically and would NEED a certain amount of time by myself with no program or socialising. I notice this also now that I work, even though it's part-time now. I get sick more often than others, with often unspecified symptoms that knock me out for a few days. It's usually some nausea, maybe a sore throat, some dizziness, and especially an intense desire to spend a (few) day(s) with no external tasks and by myself. The symptoms disappear shortly after I gave in and took some time off. It's like every few weeks, my body and mind say "okay, need a break now whether you like it or not", which I can't ignore.
Others often say to "push through", but as long as I can remember, that didn't work for me because at some (early) point, my body would start developing symptoms that made me feel as though I was sick, and if I'd ignore them, I'd feel as though I'd pass out, or start crying violently.
It would happen every time. An example when it didn't involve other people was when I worked on the dog farm for 2 months and had lots of alone time, peace and quiet. Still, after a few weeks, I got nauseated one day for no reason and felt the intense need to have a day off, otherwise I'd start crying and sort of melt down for no reason.
I struggle to not think of myself as weak because of it.
Do you experience this too? How does it make you feel?