So, I've been obsessing over this ever since I got my report card. When I found out I passed middle school, almost all of me got excited and the other small part of me starting freaking out. It's quite sad that I still get excited over school after getting back from summer vacation. I'm always thinking something will change, but then all of those times this vicious cycle has repeated and turned me into a cynical person.
In the cycle is the following: 1(Excitement for a new year & hoping something will change
2(Fatigue of the repetitive shedule
3(Depression and anxiety set back in
4(Lose almost every single bit of motivation
5(Summer vacation
6(Repeat until graduation
Frankly, I'm terrified. I don't know what to expect from anything but my classmates. I know that they'll resume their childish routines. I know that I'll be expected to pull way more of my weight than I've ever pulled. I'll also obviously be dealing with the "big dogs". As I said, I'm scared. I feel like I should just go back on adderall just so I can complete what I'm supposed to with little to no problem.
Sorry about my second personal rant. I have no comments about what I typed out.
In the cycle is the following: 1(Excitement for a new year & hoping something will change
2(Fatigue of the repetitive shedule
3(Depression and anxiety set back in
4(Lose almost every single bit of motivation
5(Summer vacation
6(Repeat until graduation
Frankly, I'm terrified. I don't know what to expect from anything but my classmates. I know that they'll resume their childish routines. I know that I'll be expected to pull way more of my weight than I've ever pulled. I'll also obviously be dealing with the "big dogs". As I said, I'm scared. I feel like I should just go back on adderall just so I can complete what I'm supposed to with little to no problem.
Sorry about my second personal rant. I have no comments about what I typed out.
