Self loathing.

[Metalhead]

I cannot allow myself the same degrees of grace that I would allow virtually anybody else on the planet.

I feel like my head is so empty and devoid of anything substantial, like I have nothing to contribute to the world, that I bother other people whenever I open my mouth.

Of course, I could trace this back to how I was raised, but I can't blame my parents for me being a failure in life forever.

 

[Markness]

You aren’t alone in feeling like this. I don’t think you have nothing to contribute, though, and you don’t bother me at all.

 

[RemyZee]

You have a lot to contribute!

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

Please don't feel that way. I internalized lies about myself and it took a lot of work before I could like myself and have agency. Only after that could I have been authentic and vulnerable with my future spouse.

@Metalhead, embrace your uniqueness and enjoy your interests. We can help you carry some of the weight of your struggles. You enjoy movies and I can recommend one anime where the characters struggle towards mental health through connection; A Silent Voice.

 

[Shamar]

I cannot allow myself the same degrees of grace that I would allow virtually anybody else on the planet.

I feel like my head is so empty and devoid of anything substantial, like I have nothing to contribute to the world, that I bother other people whenever I open my mouth.

Of course, I could trace this back to how I was raised, but I can't blame my parents for me being a failure in life forever.

You ARE a worthwhile human being. You have contributed much to this forum. Your movie critic web site, even if it is no longer operational (you really should get going on getting that back up), was a contribution to society. You DO have substance to offer.