Not Sure if I’m Autistic but Glad to Find People to Relate to

[JojobaOil]

I never thought that I could have autism until a moth or two ago. I started reading stories from other women with autism and it was like looking in a mirror.

Never had sensory “issues” but when the weather isn’t perfect it frustrates me almost to tears. Most of my childhood my mother and relatives spent “correcting” my behavior. (T-rex arms, hiding my hands, fidgeting with my ear lobes) I’ve always tried really hard to be normal but I feel like I just don’t get it. Either I don’t feel strong enough or I care too much. When I have my phone I can do it all well enough even if other people think I’m a little weird but without it everything is too much and I cry a lot and can’t focus I just breakdown completely. Even when I am acting my best people still think I’m odd.

I’ve never been to a therapist or psychiatrist but when I brought it up with one of my professors who works with autistic kids he said he’s sure I’m not on the spectrum. I still don’t know, but this forum is really comforting because I don’t feel so alone anymore. Mostly I want to talk to more women/blacks with autism. I’m in my late teens if it matters.

 

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[Wolfnox]

Hello.

 

[Isadoorian]

Welcome to the Forums! I hope you make new friends and enjoy your stay in the process!

 

[Crossbreed]

Hello & welcome @JojobaOil .

If you ever do seek support (and you live in the USA), see
Autlanders, Thriving Outside of the Box: Finding Support Resources in the USA...

There's a lot of good links, even if you do not get an "official" diagnosis.

 

[ghostie]

Welcome!

And don't worry about what anyone else says about whether you have autism or not. It's only between you and a professional should you ever decide to inquire about a diagnosis. And some professor who attempts to unofficially diagnose someone is not exactly acting like a professional.

 

[Nitro]

Hi JojobaOil

 

[Sarah S]

warm wellcome to the forums

 

[Streetwise]

I never thought that I could have autism until a moth or two ago. I started reading stories from other women with autism and it was like looking in a mirror.

Never had sensory “issues” but when the weather isn’t perfect it frustrates me almost to tears. Most of my childhood my mother and relatives spent “correcting” my behavior. (T-rex arms, hiding my hands, fidgeting with my ear lobes) I’ve always tried really hard to be normal but I feel like I just don’t get it. Either I don’t feel strong enough or I care too much. When I have my phone I can do it all well enough even if other people think I’m a little weird but without it everything is too much and I cry a lot and can’t focus I just breakdown completely. Even when I am acting my best people still think I’m odd.

I’ve never been to a therapist or psychiatrist but when I brought it up with one of my professors who works with autistic kids he said he’s sure I’m not on the spectrum. I still don’t know, but this forum is really comforting because I don’t feel so alone anymore. Mostly I want to talk to more women/blacks with autism. I’m in my late teens if it matters.

Does your professor work with children who would be termed low functioning or asd1 or Kanners autism, I'm suggesting these names as he might be not up to date, do you know if he works with male children or male and female children ,autism is harder to recognise in women( who are given the diagnosis mild high-functioning autism or or in some countries Asperger's syndrome )as we are not as demonstrative in the way we manifest anxiety, if he's not up to date he is not reliable! I've been seeing my GP for 10 years before he recognised it, only because I was standing rocking and couldn't keep still in his surgery. I would have probably waited another 30 years, if that had happened, if you want to self soothe by rockin or moving your hands or making a noise do it! in a doctors surgery !or at a hospital !or if you know there is a therapist nearby! or with a friend or family member you think is open minded!, it helps if you get the diagnosis, of somebody with you who remembers you a very very young child,
that is when autism begins to manifest, therapists need memories of that time most children don't remember it. You also need medical reports and school reports, you won't be shot if you don't have them it just means they don't have to ask you as much, if you can't get somebody to go with you ask them to write down what they remember of you as a very young child I didn't have anybody to go with me and was still diagnosed.

 

[clg114]

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