Yes, I definitely would like to see you stick around, no matter where you are with things. I really like what you bring here. You don't have to decide right now, and can take your time taking a look at who you are. I agree that many autistic people don't necessarily have all the signs. I was diagnosed with PDD NOS back when that was a thing. I don't have much of a problem with eye contact. I do have the stims, the social differences, the fixations (isn't there a better term for that? I don't like it for some reason). I very much have repetitive aspects, but not rituals. In the end, you do know yourself better than anyone else, and maybe you can turn this into a bit of an adventure of learning about yourself. In the end I think identity is dynamic and can be hard to classify. But definitely, I hope you'll stick around, no matter who you decide you are. You bring a lot here. And you are also welcome to share what you are learning here.