Robby
Well-Known Member
I'm really going through a rough time right now. I'm snowed in, no way to get out, and doesn't look like the weather is breaking anytime soon. Nothing ever seems to work out for me. I was supposed to go this week and take diagnostic tests to see if I do in fact have autism but they were cancelled due to weather. I was also supposed to go for an appointment at the vocational rehab place but that was cancelled too. Just when I thought I was finally going to get somewhere everything stops. It's going to be -15 degrees here and there's a foot of snow on the ground and I'm totally snowed in & don't even have much left in the fridge to eat. I'm just really mad and depressed. I have no job, and no prospects. I feel that I need weekly therapy but everytime I try to schedule it they tell me they're booked out several weeks. What good is therapy if I can't see someone regularly and learn coping and life skills? And plus, the therapists I've seen don't really seem to care they just sit there and fake smile & pretend to care. I have no friends because of my being isolated and my total lack of social skills and ability to find a job. I have severe social anxiety. I am supposed to be on Lexapro but I have a fear of psychiatric meds so I haven't taken it.
So before I end my rant, can anyone offer me some advice? And please don't judge me either. I just want to be a normal person and work but again because I can't seem to get the therapy & coping skills I need to figure out how to deal with my many triggers like light and sound sensitivity, and fear of being bullied because I'm gay, I can't even begin to feel I'm ready to find and hold down a job. I'm just pretty hopeless right now. Sorry for the rant but I really need some suggestions.
So before I end my rant, can anyone offer me some advice? And please don't judge me either. I just want to be a normal person and work but again because I can't seem to get the therapy & coping skills I need to figure out how to deal with my many triggers like light and sound sensitivity, and fear of being bullied because I'm gay, I can't even begin to feel I'm ready to find and hold down a job. I'm just pretty hopeless right now. Sorry for the rant but I really need some suggestions.