aspieman2396
Well-Known Member
Hey guys,
I recently came back on the forum and I mentioned that I was beginning my search for a partner. I wanted to just talk about it.
I have had a few situationships, I got ghosted before, I went on dates, nothing really led anywhere, I have held hands with a few girls (tldr, i've been around the block without being around the block), but I held off on really pursuing anything because I was stuck in my home with my abusive parents just trying to build my future and survive what they put me through and I had internal things I was battling as well, mainly because of all the years of bullying and exclusion from people at school and even my own family. As I went through my abusive situation at home with my father and his ex wife and witnessing how their relationship deteriorated before my very eyes and how much his ex wife hardcore abused and manipulated me and my father (emotionally, mentally, physically) also dealing with the things my dad did to me in the terms of abuse, nothing has been more important to me in finding a partner who is the right fit for me, this means I will not jump into a relationship in which the girl is immature or flaky or a gold digger (I've seen a lot of girls like that in my old city and the two women who were supposed to be "mom" were the epitome of gold digger). I am REALLY afraid of being abused again, that's why I'm very selective in looking for someone. I love myself and I have parts of myself that I really want to save for the right person and that I know the right person will understand and accept me.
I am somewhat of a hopeless romantic however, I have been getting better in making friends over these past few years. I noticed that people who are single, complain and complain about not having partners, I decided I am NOT going to be in that group of people. I am going to be positive for a change and I am manifesting a really awesome girl who will be my best friend and the best thing that's ever happened to me. I've changed the way I look at myself, I used to think I was ugly, now I think I'm attractive and cute and I think of myself as someone who's made it against all odds and I have true reasons to believe it. I am doing REALLY well for a high functioning Aspie and I'm living my life to the fullest doing things that I really wanted to do as an adult within reason. People have told me that I am funny and sweet and smart and they couldn't even tell that I was autistic. I'm working on myself to make sure I reach my goal even more.
Anyways, it has it's pitfalls, I do get sad whenever I see couples announce their engagement and I get home after a long day and there's nobody there, I just want someone to hold me and tell me that's it's going to be alright, I cried myself to sleep a lot about it, I am also very touchstarved. however, I'm not concerned about my future because I will find someone awesome, I just need to work on myself a tiny bit more. I am trying to remind myself that I will not end up being alone.
Anyways, Anybody here who has a partner already, how did you navigate those times that you hit rock bottom single and how did you navigate the loneliness and the touchstarvedness?
I recently came back on the forum and I mentioned that I was beginning my search for a partner. I wanted to just talk about it.
I have had a few situationships, I got ghosted before, I went on dates, nothing really led anywhere, I have held hands with a few girls (tldr, i've been around the block without being around the block), but I held off on really pursuing anything because I was stuck in my home with my abusive parents just trying to build my future and survive what they put me through and I had internal things I was battling as well, mainly because of all the years of bullying and exclusion from people at school and even my own family. As I went through my abusive situation at home with my father and his ex wife and witnessing how their relationship deteriorated before my very eyes and how much his ex wife hardcore abused and manipulated me and my father (emotionally, mentally, physically) also dealing with the things my dad did to me in the terms of abuse, nothing has been more important to me in finding a partner who is the right fit for me, this means I will not jump into a relationship in which the girl is immature or flaky or a gold digger (I've seen a lot of girls like that in my old city and the two women who were supposed to be "mom" were the epitome of gold digger). I am REALLY afraid of being abused again, that's why I'm very selective in looking for someone. I love myself and I have parts of myself that I really want to save for the right person and that I know the right person will understand and accept me.
I am somewhat of a hopeless romantic however, I have been getting better in making friends over these past few years. I noticed that people who are single, complain and complain about not having partners, I decided I am NOT going to be in that group of people. I am going to be positive for a change and I am manifesting a really awesome girl who will be my best friend and the best thing that's ever happened to me. I've changed the way I look at myself, I used to think I was ugly, now I think I'm attractive and cute and I think of myself as someone who's made it against all odds and I have true reasons to believe it. I am doing REALLY well for a high functioning Aspie and I'm living my life to the fullest doing things that I really wanted to do as an adult within reason. People have told me that I am funny and sweet and smart and they couldn't even tell that I was autistic. I'm working on myself to make sure I reach my goal even more.
Anyways, it has it's pitfalls, I do get sad whenever I see couples announce their engagement and I get home after a long day and there's nobody there, I just want someone to hold me and tell me that's it's going to be alright, I cried myself to sleep a lot about it, I am also very touchstarved. however, I'm not concerned about my future because I will find someone awesome, I just need to work on myself a tiny bit more. I am trying to remind myself that I will not end up being alone.
Anyways, Anybody here who has a partner already, how did you navigate those times that you hit rock bottom single and how did you navigate the loneliness and the touchstarvedness?
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