I hope everyone is well. It's been probably a year since I've been on here. My health has been an issue and I'm so sick of doctors. It started when I was telling my regular doctor that it was my heart that's going to take me out and probably just going to explode one day. She sent me to a cardiologist who sent me for this test and that test - but did cancel the stress test because he said my heart wouldn't take it. My breathing had gotten bad, was having to sleep leaning against the back of the couch. I texted my daughter in law at work and asked her if maybe when she got off work to come home and take me to the e.r. My mind was thinking I'd go and come home with hospice for comfort measures. She came right home, said I was gray. Well, they kept me and took off about 12 pounds of fluid. Fluid backed up into my lungs. Anyhow, I had to wear this stupid defibrillator for 3 months - then I just sent it back and said I was done with it. Then a few months ago had to get this bi-ventricular pacer with defibrillator implanted.
The worst part to all this is my sisters. They say if you're feeling better then you feel like meeting us here and there. I try to explain that, yes, I feel better than I did when I was dying. Weekly I'm getting calls and texts trying to get me to go places and it's stressful. A cruise - no interest, I would hate it. Florida - not driving and can't fly. My one sister laughs and says well, it'd be like holding your breathe for an hour and I tell her to hold her own breathe for an hour. So now they're looking at closer places. I don't want to. I've tried to get them to come here but they always come up with excuses. I was supposed to go to my daughter's 2 hours away and relieved that it wasn't going to work out (some of them had covid last week). I was really glad I didn't have to go anywhere, and then my sister texts wanting me to meet her this weekend 2 hours in the opposite direction. Arghhh! I need to get them mad at me again so they will stop trying to get me to go places. lol
Anyhow, I think I'm back. Maybe not every day like I used to be.
Missed a lot of ya'll.
The worst part to all this is my sisters. They say if you're feeling better then you feel like meeting us here and there. I try to explain that, yes, I feel better than I did when I was dying. Weekly I'm getting calls and texts trying to get me to go places and it's stressful. A cruise - no interest, I would hate it. Florida - not driving and can't fly. My one sister laughs and says well, it'd be like holding your breathe for an hour and I tell her to hold her own breathe for an hour. So now they're looking at closer places. I don't want to. I've tried to get them to come here but they always come up with excuses. I was supposed to go to my daughter's 2 hours away and relieved that it wasn't going to work out (some of them had covid last week). I was really glad I didn't have to go anywhere, and then my sister texts wanting me to meet her this weekend 2 hours in the opposite direction. Arghhh! I need to get them mad at me again so they will stop trying to get me to go places. lol
Anyhow, I think I'm back. Maybe not every day like I used to be.
Missed a lot of ya'll.
