JessH0601
Member
ok, so this might generally be a long post, but I was hoping to get some opinions of the community on this issue.
***disclaimer - I know that I can't self-dx, nor can this community do it for me. I'm just curious as to what everyone thinks, since you all have experience in the area and I don't***
so, I've been thinking for about a month now that I might have AS (or whatever they're gonna classify it as now) and the research I've done and the people I've talked to have pretty much confirmed my suspicion. but, with me being myself, I am always second guessing and doubting the conclusions that I come up with, so I'm looking to you guys to help me confirm if what it is I'm thinking is correct.
as far as my symptoms go, I have some difficulties with the social stuff. I have learned to be able to take on conversation, and pass fairly well, but it nearly always makes me uncomfortable. I don't have a lot of friends I would consider myself close to. and even the close-ish ones are people who are much older than I am.
I have issues with texture/flavor of foods, and am generally pretty picky. even to the point where I will eat peas and green beans and corn, but only canned, not frozen. the texture of certain foods is an absolute no, as well as the flavor. and, as far as texture of objects, I'm bothered by certain things, but not often. I'm more on the other side, where I'm attracted to textures that feel good to my skin, and will sit and rub my hands on something for quite a while if it is a nice texture.
I tend to have both meltdowns and shutdowns, depending on the situation. mostly, my meltdowns happen after I'm overwhelmed and I usually just get super frustrated and want to pound my fists on things or throw things. I very often lose speech, but not the ability to type or text, so that's how I usually get through it. shutdowns are fairly the same, without the aggression. I still usually lose speech, but sometimes go more "spacey" for a while, and need to withdraw to calm down a bit.
I am very sensitive to the environment and emotions of people around me. to the point where I have trouble because I can't always control that change in emotion, and it will throw off a whole day.
I also have quite the crazy mood swings. one minute I'll be hyper and very excited about things, and the next I will either have a major shutdown, or be very depressed. this happens sometimes 7-8 times in a day, and really interferes with functioning. it was the reason that it had been suggested I be diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but that never stuck.
as it were, it was suggested that I be tested when I was young, but my mother never did it. so, what I'm really wondering is if I should be tested now. if the process is worth it. because, I'm not really looking for any kind of assistance/accommodation. I'm really just looking for an answer to my incessant question of "why am I so different from everyone else?" I'm hoping for opinions, experiences, suggestions. anything any of you might offer as to what you think, and what I might do next.
***disclaimer - I know that I can't self-dx, nor can this community do it for me. I'm just curious as to what everyone thinks, since you all have experience in the area and I don't***
so, I've been thinking for about a month now that I might have AS (or whatever they're gonna classify it as now) and the research I've done and the people I've talked to have pretty much confirmed my suspicion. but, with me being myself, I am always second guessing and doubting the conclusions that I come up with, so I'm looking to you guys to help me confirm if what it is I'm thinking is correct.
as far as my symptoms go, I have some difficulties with the social stuff. I have learned to be able to take on conversation, and pass fairly well, but it nearly always makes me uncomfortable. I don't have a lot of friends I would consider myself close to. and even the close-ish ones are people who are much older than I am.
I have issues with texture/flavor of foods, and am generally pretty picky. even to the point where I will eat peas and green beans and corn, but only canned, not frozen. the texture of certain foods is an absolute no, as well as the flavor. and, as far as texture of objects, I'm bothered by certain things, but not often. I'm more on the other side, where I'm attracted to textures that feel good to my skin, and will sit and rub my hands on something for quite a while if it is a nice texture.
I tend to have both meltdowns and shutdowns, depending on the situation. mostly, my meltdowns happen after I'm overwhelmed and I usually just get super frustrated and want to pound my fists on things or throw things. I very often lose speech, but not the ability to type or text, so that's how I usually get through it. shutdowns are fairly the same, without the aggression. I still usually lose speech, but sometimes go more "spacey" for a while, and need to withdraw to calm down a bit.
I am very sensitive to the environment and emotions of people around me. to the point where I have trouble because I can't always control that change in emotion, and it will throw off a whole day.
I also have quite the crazy mood swings. one minute I'll be hyper and very excited about things, and the next I will either have a major shutdown, or be very depressed. this happens sometimes 7-8 times in a day, and really interferes with functioning. it was the reason that it had been suggested I be diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but that never stuck.
as it were, it was suggested that I be tested when I was young, but my mother never did it. so, what I'm really wondering is if I should be tested now. if the process is worth it. because, I'm not really looking for any kind of assistance/accommodation. I'm really just looking for an answer to my incessant question of "why am I so different from everyone else?" I'm hoping for opinions, experiences, suggestions. anything any of you might offer as to what you think, and what I might do next.