Not faking = no job, no home, probably no wife, etc. I have to mask in order to keep my job. I need the money to pay bills. My job is the backbone of my life and all of the things I need to survive. I need assistance at work from my peers, so I need people to like me and I have no choice to become the guy who is ‘liked’.Then stop faking so much. How will that be worse than being burned out from it?
I don’t like my job anymore. I’m not defined by my career and I have no pride connected to what I do at work, but it’s clear to me that it’s the one brick that could cause the whole house to fall down if it fails. It’s a catch 22….. To be happy means to be myself, but that would leave me unemployed and miserable.