Today I have done 3 of my 4 first year exams. 2 religious studies (religious ethics and philosophy of religion) and 1 psychology (psychological investigations). My first one this morning was religious ethics and we had 1 hour 30 to choose 2 questions.
I didn't realise it was 2 questions because I didn't read it fully and thought "oh look a question I like!!!" and wrote about 3 pages on the differences between absolute and relative morality, then another page on part B where I had to give for and against arguments to some statement. So I was writing all this stuff then I had about 15 minutes left and I just sat there thinking I'd finished but after that I saw on the paper "answer two questions" so in the last 10 minutes I could just about write 2 paragraphs briefly explaining just war and pacifism.
I was really angry and was actually holding back tears because I'd messed it all up. And my first answer was worth a high C grade so if I actually did the second question I could have got high C/B, but now I've probably failed it or got an E which is just scraping through. On my philosophy of religion paper I remembered this time and answered 2 questions and I was lucky they were relevent to my out of college interests so I could write some quality stuff which I HOPE will make up for that shambles of a first paper.
I haven't told my mum though and just lied and said it all went well, I can't tell her and I don't know if I can resit without saying anything or what. I'm really worried that I'll have to take the whole year again because I really don't want to do that, I want to move on to the second year work but how can I when I only did 1 and a bit questions on the first religious studies paper.
I'm so angry at my self and I just want to give up on education altogether and work in Macdonald's all my life or something.
I didn't realise it was 2 questions because I didn't read it fully and thought "oh look a question I like!!!" and wrote about 3 pages on the differences between absolute and relative morality, then another page on part B where I had to give for and against arguments to some statement. So I was writing all this stuff then I had about 15 minutes left and I just sat there thinking I'd finished but after that I saw on the paper "answer two questions" so in the last 10 minutes I could just about write 2 paragraphs briefly explaining just war and pacifism.
I was really angry and was actually holding back tears because I'd messed it all up. And my first answer was worth a high C grade so if I actually did the second question I could have got high C/B, but now I've probably failed it or got an E which is just scraping through. On my philosophy of religion paper I remembered this time and answered 2 questions and I was lucky they were relevent to my out of college interests so I could write some quality stuff which I HOPE will make up for that shambles of a first paper.
I haven't told my mum though and just lied and said it all went well, I can't tell her and I don't know if I can resit without saying anything or what. I'm really worried that I'll have to take the whole year again because I really don't want to do that, I want to move on to the second year work but how can I when I only did 1 and a bit questions on the first religious studies paper.
