I feel like a loser.

[Markness]

I know it’s not a healthy way to think but I really do feel like a loser. It doesn’t help that is what I was often called by other people in my teens. I know people at work who are much younger than me, one who is also on the spectrum, who already have graduated college/university, are in long term relationships, and aren’t bullied by their family members. I have lived for almost four decades but I don’t have my life in order at all.

Just coming up with a paragraph feels like a challenge to me. A lot of it is due to not getting enough sleep so my mental faculties aren’t at their best and I am having flashbacks to when I first became clinically depressed in 2005. That was twenty years ago and I wouldn’t wish the intense feelings of despair I’ve had to deal with on even my worst enemy.

 

[Aspychata]

You are gainfully employed, and have been for sometime. That's success. l wish l had your employment history. You have provided a very valuable service keeping your library alive and a valuable part of society. You have a good relationship with your mother, and you on occasion , leave for interesting concerts, etc. If you only judge yourself on relationships, l don't believe that's a true parameter to judge yourself on. To me, successful employment is a true factor of success. Sadly, a lot much of America is homeless, and living in their cars. I hope this doesn't sound too harsh.

 

[Fredan]

You're more successful than I am, and I don't think I am a loser, so you are definitely not.

Losers are not those who struggle due to a condition/disability, but rather those that put people down because of it.

 

[if6wasnin9]

I'm the loser, really. I've done lots in 60 years and failed at everything. I've been criticized in every job and school. And the healthcare system looks down on me.
Can you enjoy yourself? That doesn't come easy to me.