I want to be able to have friends since i don't got any of those and the first step (after admitting my errors) is to learn body language but idk how. i tried looking it up on the internet but i got stressed out and ended up panicking and closing the tab. so how should i learn to read body language (and i may need to learn to socialize)?
that's a huge question.
many, many different parts to it.
I believe to socialise effectively would require an understanding of a particular groups hierarchy, customs, and purpose.
By particular group I mean the various levels of sociability expected by different 'groups' of people.
(family, relatives, familiar faces/family friends and visitors, academia, peers, support groups, interest groups, religious groups and so on)
off the top of my head I can only think of a few traits that might be acceptable to all of the 'groups' I've mentioned above.
manners (politeness) affability and humour.
(the list will likely be much longer )
Learning body language is effective if it's to understand someone else however;
and depending on how intensely you want to get into the subject,
a great part of it concerns the facial muscles.
reading someones face
(in addition to the rest of the body)
if you were thinking of trying to disguise your own body language you have a monumental task ahead of you
Are there particular reasons why you can't just be yourself; to attract those most like you?
rather than try to bend yourself all out of shape learning to be something you're not?