BananaInc
New Member
Hi everyone. I'm new to the forums and found it after seeking some "guidance". I've never opened up to literally anyone before so this post might be a bit rambling but I think it's for the best as it's a way of "self-assurance" for me! I also have a question at the end
As of now, I consider myself self-diagnosed with Asperger's. I didn't know much about autism as a whole until I met a person online who said he had Autism. Long story short, I did research and learned that Asperger's may be the solution to my sideways life.
In elementary school, I had known most of what I was learning already because I was using the computer by then and I love to just look at random things on Wikipedia whenever they occur. Although this made school easy, it was almost too easy in that I never knew what it was like to struggle. Now that I'm a senior, I've been going years without learning how to deal with social situations and problems life throws at me. My parents think I do fine, but to be honest, I get emotionally drained just from trying to understand the world. I find girls attractive, but I just lack the drive to even try. Even when I'm alone with a good friend, I just can't find anything good to talk about because it all sounds bland! I tend to rely on others to talk and I just chime in when I find something good to say. My worst feature is that I sometimes just want to be completely alone and not talk to anyone even if my greatest friend wants to hang out which makes it hard for me to keep friends.
Whenever I'm not alone, I have to hide who I truly am. I have a very hard time with hearing other people talk if there's background noise even if they're directly facing me even though my hearing has been fine at the doctors. I tend to act out in my room when I'm alone (Awkward to explain, but random gestures and I play with my hands a lot).
Kind of a venting post, but I sometimes doubt myself and this post gives me a way to show just a portion of my alien feelings. I still feel doubted if I just consider myself self-diagnosed, and I would like to talk to my doctor to see about a formal diagnosis. I'm going for a checkup soon and this is my chance to put my problems to rest. My question is, how would I go about this whole topic with my doctor, someone who I have never had to talk with besides some anxiety problems? My mother will be there too (I'm 17) and just mentioning it would be a surprise to both of them. Is there any easy way to do this? My mother has always been supportive, but can be dismissive when it comes to health concerns.
To keep the gloom down, here are some things about me! I enjoy watching anime and have been formally learning Japanese and plan to go on a trip with a friend next year where we get to stay with a host family in Japan! I also like playing games, listening to music (Indie mostly), and collecting figures.
If you made it all the way through, hope you enjoyed the novel. I'm glad to be finally posting on here and thanks for being a welcoming community! I hope to get to know more of you!
As of now, I consider myself self-diagnosed with Asperger's. I didn't know much about autism as a whole until I met a person online who said he had Autism. Long story short, I did research and learned that Asperger's may be the solution to my sideways life.
In elementary school, I had known most of what I was learning already because I was using the computer by then and I love to just look at random things on Wikipedia whenever they occur. Although this made school easy, it was almost too easy in that I never knew what it was like to struggle. Now that I'm a senior, I've been going years without learning how to deal with social situations and problems life throws at me. My parents think I do fine, but to be honest, I get emotionally drained just from trying to understand the world. I find girls attractive, but I just lack the drive to even try. Even when I'm alone with a good friend, I just can't find anything good to talk about because it all sounds bland! I tend to rely on others to talk and I just chime in when I find something good to say. My worst feature is that I sometimes just want to be completely alone and not talk to anyone even if my greatest friend wants to hang out which makes it hard for me to keep friends.
Whenever I'm not alone, I have to hide who I truly am. I have a very hard time with hearing other people talk if there's background noise even if they're directly facing me even though my hearing has been fine at the doctors. I tend to act out in my room when I'm alone (Awkward to explain, but random gestures and I play with my hands a lot).
Kind of a venting post, but I sometimes doubt myself and this post gives me a way to show just a portion of my alien feelings. I still feel doubted if I just consider myself self-diagnosed, and I would like to talk to my doctor to see about a formal diagnosis. I'm going for a checkup soon and this is my chance to put my problems to rest. My question is, how would I go about this whole topic with my doctor, someone who I have never had to talk with besides some anxiety problems? My mother will be there too (I'm 17) and just mentioning it would be a surprise to both of them. Is there any easy way to do this? My mother has always been supportive, but can be dismissive when it comes to health concerns.
To keep the gloom down, here are some things about me! I enjoy watching anime and have been formally learning Japanese and plan to go on a trip with a friend next year where we get to stay with a host family in Japan! I also like playing games, listening to music (Indie mostly), and collecting figures.
If you made it all the way through, hope you enjoyed the novel. I'm glad to be finally posting on here and thanks for being a welcoming community! I hope to get to know more of you!
