Sablerose
Active Member
Hi . .
I guess im here for like minds and answers. Something I have spent a lifetime searching for. I was diagnosed in the late 60s early 70s with hyperactivity. It was extremely apparent as most girls were not diagnosed with that and they put me on tranquilizers as was the norm back then. . . Hahaha. Well that didnt last long as they could never seem to find the right does to make me "normal" (I assume that was the intent by the doctors back then)
As years went by so did the many diagnoses. . . Hyperactivity became bipolar with ocd tendencies, chronic depression, that in turn became adhd. . . There was no "types" or numbers . . . Just adhd. . Like it was just hyperactivity, just add, but again we are only up to the 90s. And the ritilin did help some with my issues but it made the fidgeting stuff way worse but i could at times get my brain to shut up an sleep more often then not so i let that diagnoses ride. Made more sense out of my life. . . I must have the right answer even though it still seemed to not address Many of the issues i still faced with myself and the world outside my home.
Again lets fast forward, I got married in my fourties to a man of the same age with very little social skills. . . Its how we connected. . . The dislike of social interactions and love of sci-fi and monster movies drew us together in a nutshell. We both were art majors as well. We always knew we were different but i had my adhd diagnoses (along with others, lupus loves its "friends") And we had everyday life to deal with.
Now older and my husband close to retirement we still search now and then trying to find help for him as i basically had mine. He kept saying he thought it was autism, i argued to death that it could not be, we had autistic kids in school and they were brought in in wheelchairs on the short bus. He was not a short bus kind of guy so i would not listen. . . Yeah i have my own issues as you can see.
Somehow he got me to watch a few youtube videos from people with aspergers. . . . I was bawling my eyes out by the end (Im super emotional. . The adhd side of me im thinking) because the stories i was hearing was me, it was not just my story but some of them were exactly like my husband in the way he does stuff.
Ive worn a mask , many many masks over the years to the point i couldnt see me anymore only what i was supposed to be and everytime id get there id crack and shut down for sometimes years til i could face outside my door even. Yet he stayed. No one ever stayed but he did, there had to ve something wrong with him too, he even said that same thing. We both knew we are very different from others. . . Like aliens lol. Yes, I jest but im pretty sure people here can follow me for once in my long life.
Getting my hubby diagnosed I think will help him, but getting him to a doc is like trying to make a pig fly. Im positive and have no doubts after my research that im on the autism spectrum and not just adhd or whatever the heck the VA wishes to throw at me in lable form but i dont need an official diagnoses at this late stage of life. We are from a far different generation where you didnt even talk about these things let alone admit you saw a doctor about it.
I tend to just read and not say much but when i get excited i might post forever. . . Just a heads up but maybe others are like that here too. . . Silent or cant shut me up lol.
I do have one question no doctor could ever give me a reason for.
Does anyone here ever zone out? Like your entire body shuts down for a brief time, you can see, you can hear but you can not move or speak? And you cant break out of it easily. . . Tends to happen if i get to lost in thought. They jusy say. . "I dunno. . . Could Be a lot of things. . . " Whatever, its happened all my life maybe someday i will get an answer
Sorry so long winded, but im a bit nervous even "talking" here so ill just stop rambling now, thanks for reading all this if you are still here.
I guess im here for like minds and answers. Something I have spent a lifetime searching for. I was diagnosed in the late 60s early 70s with hyperactivity. It was extremely apparent as most girls were not diagnosed with that and they put me on tranquilizers as was the norm back then. . . Hahaha. Well that didnt last long as they could never seem to find the right does to make me "normal" (I assume that was the intent by the doctors back then)
As years went by so did the many diagnoses. . . Hyperactivity became bipolar with ocd tendencies, chronic depression, that in turn became adhd. . . There was no "types" or numbers . . . Just adhd. . Like it was just hyperactivity, just add, but again we are only up to the 90s. And the ritilin did help some with my issues but it made the fidgeting stuff way worse but i could at times get my brain to shut up an sleep more often then not so i let that diagnoses ride. Made more sense out of my life. . . I must have the right answer even though it still seemed to not address Many of the issues i still faced with myself and the world outside my home.
Again lets fast forward, I got married in my fourties to a man of the same age with very little social skills. . . Its how we connected. . . The dislike of social interactions and love of sci-fi and monster movies drew us together in a nutshell. We both were art majors as well. We always knew we were different but i had my adhd diagnoses (along with others, lupus loves its "friends") And we had everyday life to deal with.
Now older and my husband close to retirement we still search now and then trying to find help for him as i basically had mine. He kept saying he thought it was autism, i argued to death that it could not be, we had autistic kids in school and they were brought in in wheelchairs on the short bus. He was not a short bus kind of guy so i would not listen. . . Yeah i have my own issues as you can see.
Somehow he got me to watch a few youtube videos from people with aspergers. . . . I was bawling my eyes out by the end (Im super emotional. . The adhd side of me im thinking) because the stories i was hearing was me, it was not just my story but some of them were exactly like my husband in the way he does stuff.
Ive worn a mask , many many masks over the years to the point i couldnt see me anymore only what i was supposed to be and everytime id get there id crack and shut down for sometimes years til i could face outside my door even. Yet he stayed. No one ever stayed but he did, there had to ve something wrong with him too, he even said that same thing. We both knew we are very different from others. . . Like aliens lol. Yes, I jest but im pretty sure people here can follow me for once in my long life.
Getting my hubby diagnosed I think will help him, but getting him to a doc is like trying to make a pig fly. Im positive and have no doubts after my research that im on the autism spectrum and not just adhd or whatever the heck the VA wishes to throw at me in lable form but i dont need an official diagnoses at this late stage of life. We are from a far different generation where you didnt even talk about these things let alone admit you saw a doctor about it.
I tend to just read and not say much but when i get excited i might post forever. . . Just a heads up but maybe others are like that here too. . . Silent or cant shut me up lol.
I do have one question no doctor could ever give me a reason for.
Does anyone here ever zone out? Like your entire body shuts down for a brief time, you can see, you can hear but you can not move or speak? And you cant break out of it easily. . . Tends to happen if i get to lost in thought. They jusy say. . "I dunno. . . Could Be a lot of things. . . " Whatever, its happened all my life maybe someday i will get an answer
Sorry so long winded, but im a bit nervous even "talking" here so ill just stop rambling now, thanks for reading all this if you are still here.
