CynthiaC
New Member
Hello community! I am a 46 year old female who has a daughter newly diagnosed with autism and ADHD (she is almost 11). I'm also a Speech-Language Pathologist, and I'm feeling more and more like I could self-diagnose for autism, maybe even ADHD.
But I feel like such an imposter! Or maybe I'm just barely on the side of neurotypical, yet so much adds up to the side of neurodiverse.
I've taken the Autism Quotient test and gotten scores that are in a mid-range (28-32). I tend to get fixated on topics of interest, I have always felt like I didn't fit in, had a hard time making friends, I am sensitive to crowds, noise, textures. Eye contact is difficult, but not impossible. I hate making small talk. I'm deeply introverted, I secretly count to 12 by 2's for almost anything while also tightening the muscles behind my knees as I do this, I used to have an eating disorder, I see things others don't when it comes to problem solving. I read very early on and wanted a typewriter for Christmas when I was 4. I get anxiety and self-care is extremely important to me. I have a learning disability (I can't remember what, which is ironic because I think it has something to do with recall of information). I prefer 1:1 with people rather than groups.
But I'm also totally "normal." I made it through grad school, got married, had a kid, got divorced, and remarried. I have a circle of friends, and I don't think they feel I am "different." Then again, in my circle of friends we're all a little different...at least total introverts if not also on the (self-diagnosed) spectrum.
I don't know of any self-stimming that I do...my RRB's would be very low (in fact my daughter almost didn't qualify for ASD because the MD couldn't find "enough" RRB's initially, until I described more at length).
How does one feel confident self-diagnosing if it seems so borderline? I don't want to be an imposter, and yet...this is a world I feel entirely comfortable in and always have. Can anyone please advise? Thank you.
But I feel like such an imposter! Or maybe I'm just barely on the side of neurotypical, yet so much adds up to the side of neurodiverse.
I've taken the Autism Quotient test and gotten scores that are in a mid-range (28-32). I tend to get fixated on topics of interest, I have always felt like I didn't fit in, had a hard time making friends, I am sensitive to crowds, noise, textures. Eye contact is difficult, but not impossible. I hate making small talk. I'm deeply introverted, I secretly count to 12 by 2's for almost anything while also tightening the muscles behind my knees as I do this, I used to have an eating disorder, I see things others don't when it comes to problem solving. I read very early on and wanted a typewriter for Christmas when I was 4. I get anxiety and self-care is extremely important to me. I have a learning disability (I can't remember what, which is ironic because I think it has something to do with recall of information). I prefer 1:1 with people rather than groups.
But I'm also totally "normal." I made it through grad school, got married, had a kid, got divorced, and remarried. I have a circle of friends, and I don't think they feel I am "different." Then again, in my circle of friends we're all a little different...at least total introverts if not also on the (self-diagnosed) spectrum.
I don't know of any self-stimming that I do...my RRB's would be very low (in fact my daughter almost didn't qualify for ASD because the MD couldn't find "enough" RRB's initially, until I described more at length).
How does one feel confident self-diagnosing if it seems so borderline? I don't want to be an imposter, and yet...this is a world I feel entirely comfortable in and always have. Can anyone please advise? Thank you.