TankYouVeryMuch
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I'm a current junior at The Ohio State University. At seven I was diagnosed Asperger's syndrome.
I've never been a part of an online support group like this, but I feel like I too often dump my problems off onto my friends and family. I've seen psychiatrists/psychologists in the past with minimal success to assist some of my social anxiety issues. I tend to be quite extroverted, in truth, when I am with/in front of a large group of people. As a result I do have what I feel is a good circle of friends.
Where I struggle is one-on-one interactions. It becomes increasingly frustrating, because I have a tendency to critique every little thing I say in conversation. There's this combination of low self-esteem and an inability to read people that comes with my condition, and I have trouble escaping my own head when meeting someone new as a result. Basically, I tend to think people have the lowest opinion of me possible. This is especially frustrating while attempting to find a romantic partner. I often dwell on failed interactions too.
That's the basis of why I'm joining, I guess. Not an easy decision for me... again, I hate dumping my problems on other people.
I fell like my life is great otherwise. I'm blessed with two loving parents and two great younger siblings, the aforementioned great circle of friends and the memory that comes along with the social issues allows me to excel academically. I'm journalism major with a lifelong-dream job (unpaid internship) covering the Ohio State football team. My physical health is great, I run about 10 miles a week and weightlift four-five days. Which is why I'm sick of hating myself. There's plenty of people on the spectrum dealing with way more, putting my issues in the same area as theirs almost seems petty. But here I am.
On a happier note, I love talking sports (football in particular, which I played in high school) and music. Playing sports is my favorite pastime... if there's competition to be had, I want in. I love the outdoors too, a proud Eagle Scout.
Thank you all for your time and support.
TL;DR version: Hello everyone, I'm a college student dealing with Asperger's syndrome. Call me Tank if you like.
I've never been a part of an online support group like this, but I feel like I too often dump my problems off onto my friends and family. I've seen psychiatrists/psychologists in the past with minimal success to assist some of my social anxiety issues. I tend to be quite extroverted, in truth, when I am with/in front of a large group of people. As a result I do have what I feel is a good circle of friends.
Where I struggle is one-on-one interactions. It becomes increasingly frustrating, because I have a tendency to critique every little thing I say in conversation. There's this combination of low self-esteem and an inability to read people that comes with my condition, and I have trouble escaping my own head when meeting someone new as a result. Basically, I tend to think people have the lowest opinion of me possible. This is especially frustrating while attempting to find a romantic partner. I often dwell on failed interactions too.
That's the basis of why I'm joining, I guess. Not an easy decision for me... again, I hate dumping my problems on other people.
I fell like my life is great otherwise. I'm blessed with two loving parents and two great younger siblings, the aforementioned great circle of friends and the memory that comes along with the social issues allows me to excel academically. I'm journalism major with a lifelong-dream job (unpaid internship) covering the Ohio State football team. My physical health is great, I run about 10 miles a week and weightlift four-five days. Which is why I'm sick of hating myself. There's plenty of people on the spectrum dealing with way more, putting my issues in the same area as theirs almost seems petty. But here I am.
On a happier note, I love talking sports (football in particular, which I played in high school) and music. Playing sports is my favorite pastime... if there's competition to be had, I want in. I love the outdoors too, a proud Eagle Scout.
Thank you all for your time and support.
TL;DR version: Hello everyone, I'm a college student dealing with Asperger's syndrome. Call me Tank if you like.
