grommet
Well-Known Member
I have go to the library to pick up a book I've ordered. I am very scared of going to library, they always want to talk to me. I am so frightened of the place I have avoided going there for years. Sometimes I buy a book instead, I feel I just can't face the person at the counter.
This isn't a post asking for advice, I just hoped if I talked about this I could feel better, less scared.
I avoided the bus for years because I was afraid of the drivers. Cashiers at the market, it can be the worst. When self-checkout came it helped so much. I think there are big things in my life I could not do because I was afraid of interaction with people. I wonder if there are other people like me.
When the weather is the worst I will look out the window and feel relief because it means there aren't people walking around. I don't dislike people and I get lonely if I don't see them. I cannot help that contradiction. I just can't read people and sometimes it feels the worst when I think I have communicated perfectly clearly but people do not understand. If it was one person I could think it was them but this happens over and over which means even though I am doing my best, I cannot communicate well with the outside world.
I have a lot of fear in my life and I think almost all of it in every situation traces back to having to interact with another person. Sometimes I imagine standing alone in the desert. No people for miles and miles. For once I could breathe out and not be scared.
This isn't a post asking for advice, I just hoped if I talked about this I could feel better, less scared.
I avoided the bus for years because I was afraid of the drivers. Cashiers at the market, it can be the worst. When self-checkout came it helped so much. I think there are big things in my life I could not do because I was afraid of interaction with people. I wonder if there are other people like me.
When the weather is the worst I will look out the window and feel relief because it means there aren't people walking around. I don't dislike people and I get lonely if I don't see them. I cannot help that contradiction. I just can't read people and sometimes it feels the worst when I think I have communicated perfectly clearly but people do not understand. If it was one person I could think it was them but this happens over and over which means even though I am doing my best, I cannot communicate well with the outside world.
I have a lot of fear in my life and I think almost all of it in every situation traces back to having to interact with another person. Sometimes I imagine standing alone in the desert. No people for miles and miles. For once I could breathe out and not be scared.