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Feeling hopeless

Discussion in 'Help and Support' started by Markness, May 7, 2020.

  1. Markness

    Markness Young God

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    I have an appointment to see if I can get a TMS session scheduled. I hope it will happen this time around. I don’t want to suffer anymore.
     
  2. Markness

    Markness Young God

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    The TMS is going to cost $7500, something I don’t have.
     
  3. Aspychata

    Aspychata Serenity waves, beachy vibes

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    That's expensive. Can you ask if they take on hardship cases? Or find another alternative? Trying to give support, and failing horribly.
     
  4. Markness

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    Both of my parents have agreed to each pay half of the cost for the TMS. Nothing is scheduled yet, though.
     
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  5. Aspychata

    Aspychata Serenity waves, beachy vibes

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    Alright. Moving forward!!
     
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    YAY! I'm so glad for you!
     
  7. Markness

    Markness Young God

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    I hope the treatment starts at least before the month is over. I want to stop suffering and actually live my life.
     
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    Corona19 has brought good and bad to my life
    Positives first. Finished a relationship with my live in boyfriend, discovered being alone doesn’t have to mean being lonely, created a indoor garden m and rediscovered my love of running, no clothes shopping for 3 months leading to a reassessment of why I bought so many and what need it was meeting, decided to leave my job (was unhappy the whole time I worked there) found again my love of books, art and music
    The bad, struggled having to live with my ex and him being the onllly person I saw, no cuddles/affection financial worries, increased anxiety and depression due to lack of structure and predictability
    In the uk I from Saturday as a single person can see my daughter and Granddaughter in our respective homes, I have 5 jobs to apply for, and my home and future is in my hands, stilll feel shaky but positive about the future.
     
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  9. Markness

    Markness Young God

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    Thank you. I hope it will help my mind so I can move forward in life.
     
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    Markness Young God

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    Before COVID, I was able to get up and do things. Now it takes me hours to get out of bed and I don’t know what to focus on at all. I hope the TMS will reboot my mind.
     
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    Markness Young God

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    Just one more day until my first treatment. I want to feel better after all these years of suffering.
     
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  12. Aspychata

    Aspychata Serenity waves, beachy vibes

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    Best wishes.
     
  13. Markness

    Markness Young God

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    I’ve had two treatments so far. I understand why others compare it to having a woodpecker tapping on your skull.

    Unfortunately, I still suffer from depression but I hope more treatments will start changing my mind.
     
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    Markness Young God

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    I am now going through phases where I will feel unbearably down one moment and calm the next.
     
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    That's interesting! At least, something is happening. Maybe the calm becomes much more frequent than the down, after you've had more treatments.
     
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    Markness Young God

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    I’ve been able to cry after not being able to for a long time. It feels like a lot of pressure releases from me when it happens.
     
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    Markness Young God

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    I read some today since I don’t have to work. My body wants me to nap since I didn’t sleep well last night but the mental health clinic wants me to avoid doing that so it’s going to difficult. I feel calm during the middle of the day.
     
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    I think that's a good sign you're getting better. I hardly ever cried for most of my life. Last year, after I addressed a bunch of repressed emotions I had as long as I can remember, I started crying and it felt like pressure being released like you described. I feel much better now.
     
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