Nacho
Well-Known Member
Today I was @ university the whole afternoon, a thing I've been trying since this year I am trying to follow my parents instructions and go to class, unlike last year.
Today, I was resting from one class and I went to the university garden -which is, by the way, huge-. There's a lot of grass where people usually sit and talk -since Spanish weather is so nice, you can practically do this every month but Jan and Feb-.
I saw from afar three people I knew (2 girls, 1 boy) -they are not close to me, but they are friends with a close friend of mine. They know me from first year, when I was doing weird stuff and didn't even know about Aspergers, so I was pretending to be the nicest guy possible to everybody, which, as I said before, is exhausting-.
I smiled at them, because they also saw me, and they were kind of staring at me from afar, which is weird. I kept smiling and I started walking towards them, if they maybe wanted something from me or do the usual 'hello how have you been' stuff, in which I'm trying to improve in.
The weirdest thing happened: they kept staring at me and laughing, but walking away from me. What the hell? This kept going until I lost sight of them -they went too far away.
At first, I took this in a funny way, because one of the girls was trying to get it going with me last year; so I thought, maybe they are smiling because they saw me after such a long time. But, I don't know what to think of it, now it is really annoying me when I rethink it.
Were they laughing at me? Were they making fun of me? And if they were -which I wouldn't mind-, why would they be doing it so blatantly? That's the thing that really annoys me, and almost makes me angry.
What should I think about this?
Today, I was resting from one class and I went to the university garden -which is, by the way, huge-. There's a lot of grass where people usually sit and talk -since Spanish weather is so nice, you can practically do this every month but Jan and Feb-.
I saw from afar three people I knew (2 girls, 1 boy) -they are not close to me, but they are friends with a close friend of mine. They know me from first year, when I was doing weird stuff and didn't even know about Aspergers, so I was pretending to be the nicest guy possible to everybody, which, as I said before, is exhausting-.
I smiled at them, because they also saw me, and they were kind of staring at me from afar, which is weird. I kept smiling and I started walking towards them, if they maybe wanted something from me or do the usual 'hello how have you been' stuff, in which I'm trying to improve in.
The weirdest thing happened: they kept staring at me and laughing, but walking away from me. What the hell? This kept going until I lost sight of them -they went too far away.
At first, I took this in a funny way, because one of the girls was trying to get it going with me last year; so I thought, maybe they are smiling because they saw me after such a long time. But, I don't know what to think of it, now it is really annoying me when I rethink it.
Were they laughing at me? Were they making fun of me? And if they were -which I wouldn't mind-, why would they be doing it so blatantly? That's the thing that really annoys me, and almost makes me angry.
What should I think about this?