I feel this way too quite a lot. Though at other times I feel so disappointed I could scream.In understanding and surrender, there is hope and strength, I think.
In some ways it was easier to deal with when I was a teenager, when the world didn't make sense I picked up my guitar and belted out Nirvana songs. I don't get the opportunity so much these days, but I would certainly enjoy it if I could do it like in the old days!