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Does your physical appearance match your inner view of yourself?

Ken

Ken

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Anytime I see a picture of myself or see myself in a mirror it is always a jarring shock, because that image is not how I feel inside. The shock is greatest when seeing myself in a department store mirror as I walk past or my reflection in a window. I always think, “who is that!” As soon as I realize it’s me, I feel revolted.

That has always been the case. Makes me basically hate what I look like. I generally don't obsess over it, but it is still always a shock.

I’m curious if that's just me, and if it's an autistic thing. Anybody else feel that way?
 
I try to actively avoid mirrors. I wouldn't say I hate it, I look alright, but I don't like to see myself getting old. I look more grown up and serious than I feel.
 
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I personally believe no one imagines themself to be the way they are physically. But most make best out it. Personally. I do feel like my body isn't mine at all. That it never did match the spirit.
 
No. My whole life I am hoping that one day I will wake up as a tall, strong, handsome man. Alas the body I have is the one I have to live with. And while I know that I am a gorgeous woman, because I can see myself in the mirror and I can see how much men and even women are interested in me, this is not the body I wish I had. But I work with what I have now. At least I don't feel disgust towards it anymore, only sad acceptance. And I do take care of how I look, of course, because I have a partner and he deserves the best version of me.
 
I have a guy personality in a girl’s body. Lol

I also struggle a lot with self-esteem issues and body image issues, and I don’t think I look as good as other people seem to think I do. Sometimes I wonder if my husband has good eyesight…
 
My inner and outer self do not match... and no... I do not like photos or video of myself. Furthermore, if we listen to audio recordings of ourselves, it won't match either... what we "hear" is influenced by bone conduction, whereas what other people hear is something different.

I know it is all a bit of an illusion that our mind is playing on us... but on the other hand, I also believe that our consciousness is something separate from the "meat suit" we are temporarily occupying. We are the energy that makes it all do what it does, but we are not our body, per se.
 
In my mind's eye I look like 90s Andrew Eldritch. In reality I look like walmart version of Danny DeVito.

Like thejuice, I don't like seeing my face. I actively avoid mirrors. I used to cover them with a blanket at some point, when I was staying with a relative, but had to stop because once I forgot to remove the blanket and it was hard to explain... he thought I was afraid of ghosts.
 
When I was young my looks were an asset that I managed quite carefully most of the time. As I aged my looks diminished but so too did my ability to care about that. No, I never felt uncomfortable seeing myself in the mirror and I still don't.
 
People kept telling me I looked like John Denver, asked where is my guitar. Noticed later they were right could be his twin brother. No wonder I attracted women like flies, never took advantage of it. Not really into country or folk music.
so never noticed.
 
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If I could be 100% honest. I avoid looking in mirrors as much as possible. The only time I have to be face to face in the mirror with myself is when I brush my teeth. Just looking at myself. I find a profound disappointment. I am not unattractive by any stretch of the imagination. But my ideas of who I think of myself as, and what I see in the mirror, are two completely different things.

Personally. I feel like a mix between a masculine and feminine enitity. Being not one or the other entirely. But my body is hard bound to being male. I feel more like a undefinable being. But, I'm stuck in a definable form.

My pfp is more representative of something I see about myself. Notably feminine but still having some semblance of masculine traits.
 
My inner view is of a landscape of ideas. My outer appearance has good and bad aspects. A photographer could easily emphasize either one. If you struggle, you might want to invest in a professional portrait.
 
I could not believe I married my wife Marsha Brady lookalike, I guess you could say Masha hooked up with John,
Never thought of that before. Probably what others see. No wonder my oldest son looks like a Movie star. Maybe could of had a second career as celebrity lookalikes.
 
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