Occasionally I will not be able to get to sleep in the middle of the night upon awakening, due to a "wired" state that concerns me.
I am afraid such a state might develop when in a dentist chair, with three appointments coming up, or if I should ever become bed ridden or bound to a wheel chair. I fear I would become insane.
What brings on this wired state is the realization that my hundreds of life altering experiences, my awareness of these experiences, and my reaction to these experiences, will never be understood by anyone else because they are so unique and bizarre. I sometimes feel as as though I live in a parallel universe that is foreign to every other living being. This is a very lonely feeling which is a struggle to live with.
The onset of this wired sensation seems to be triggered by nasal congestion, and/or weird dreams that are complex that I am not capable of recalling or understanding.
When this happens, I am incapable of sitting still or laying down. I get very jittery, as if I am high on caffeine. I feel I must walk around outside to regain my sanity.
I am concerned about what would happen if this developed while in a hospital bed where I could not move after surgery, or in the middle of dental work which I will soon undergo. I am afraid I would shake uncontrollably in my chair and would need restraint.
Recently, this has only happened in the middle of the night, and occurs on average about twice a month. It used to be less often.
Has anyone had such experiences? If so, how did you cope?
I am afraid such a state might develop when in a dentist chair, with three appointments coming up, or if I should ever become bed ridden or bound to a wheel chair. I fear I would become insane.
What brings on this wired state is the realization that my hundreds of life altering experiences, my awareness of these experiences, and my reaction to these experiences, will never be understood by anyone else because they are so unique and bizarre. I sometimes feel as as though I live in a parallel universe that is foreign to every other living being. This is a very lonely feeling which is a struggle to live with.
The onset of this wired sensation seems to be triggered by nasal congestion, and/or weird dreams that are complex that I am not capable of recalling or understanding.
When this happens, I am incapable of sitting still or laying down. I get very jittery, as if I am high on caffeine. I feel I must walk around outside to regain my sanity.
I am concerned about what would happen if this developed while in a hospital bed where I could not move after surgery, or in the middle of dental work which I will soon undergo. I am afraid I would shake uncontrollably in my chair and would need restraint.
Recently, this has only happened in the middle of the night, and occurs on average about twice a month. It used to be less often.
Has anyone had such experiences? If so, how did you cope?