DragonKid♾
Active Member
This happens a lot. I see objects as alive. I can talk to them in my head and they talk back. I have relationships with them. I told my parents and it didn’t go well. They told me that objects can’t really talk to me and I need to focus on reality. I can’t convince myself they don’t. Am I crazy? Does this mean I’m delusional. They said it could be a coping mechanism for my autism. That’s why I’m asking here. Real conversation is so hard because of nonverbal cues and inability to read people, so I pretend to talk to objects. I need to learn how to talk to real people. But why can’t I have both? Why can’t I form friendships with people and objects? Or am I trying to have my cake and eat it too. They said that they understood the concept of having sentimental value attached to an object, but that’s not what this is for me. I can talk to staplers and necklaces and spoons, all of which I had no prior connection to. Is this harmful? Will I become a hoarder? I do have difficulty throwing things out because I feel bad for them. But I also don’t buy much. I don’t believe in going to the mall and shopping for new clothes if I have clothes at home. I don’t like buying new stuff, it feels like betraying the stuff I have. I want to convince my parents that it isn’t harmful. But I can barely convince myself. If it is harmful, how do I stop it? I don’t want it to stop. I don’t want the objects around me to go silent and uncommunicative. One time an air purifier at my school was able to calm me down during a panic attack/meltdown. Objects help me like that sometimes. But should I stop? Will I hurt myself?