Marcus
Star Wars enthusiast
Well, after what seemed like an eternity, I decided to come back here.
I wouldn't say that I'm a total stranger here, I've posted a few threads before, but sometimes even being involved in a site with people that deal with the same type of issues you do can be overwhelming.
I doubt anyone truly cares to read any of this, but it was a little hard to believe at first that people cared about my problems and were happy to offer advice. I still think that to this day, even people that I meet in the real world that have autism or depression or anything related to what I deal with.
Why should someone take time out of their day to deal with your issues or to lend an ear? Especially when you're just someone behind a keyboard or another face in real life that means nothing to them.
Depression is what mainly drove me away, and some of my interests that I've mentioned on here in the past have changed, so it makes me feel like I liar to have specific threads posted about a particular subject that I am no longer interested in.
People don't know the full story of my autism on here or what I deal with on a daily basis, and I doubt even one person would truly care enough for me to tell them everything.
The mind is a dangerous thing, and yet I've ran into some people that just say "Oh, it's not that bad." or "You'll get over it."
I feel like I'm starting to ramble on here.. but the point is, I came back just to get another chance and see if I mattered again.
Hopefully someone cares, I'd hate for my mind to be correct like it usually is.
I wouldn't say that I'm a total stranger here, I've posted a few threads before, but sometimes even being involved in a site with people that deal with the same type of issues you do can be overwhelming.
I doubt anyone truly cares to read any of this, but it was a little hard to believe at first that people cared about my problems and were happy to offer advice. I still think that to this day, even people that I meet in the real world that have autism or depression or anything related to what I deal with.
Why should someone take time out of their day to deal with your issues or to lend an ear? Especially when you're just someone behind a keyboard or another face in real life that means nothing to them.
Depression is what mainly drove me away, and some of my interests that I've mentioned on here in the past have changed, so it makes me feel like I liar to have specific threads posted about a particular subject that I am no longer interested in.
People don't know the full story of my autism on here or what I deal with on a daily basis, and I doubt even one person would truly care enough for me to tell them everything.
The mind is a dangerous thing, and yet I've ran into some people that just say "Oh, it's not that bad." or "You'll get over it."
I feel like I'm starting to ramble on here.. but the point is, I came back just to get another chance and see if I mattered again.
Hopefully someone cares, I'd hate for my mind to be correct like it usually is.