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ASD + Ego Death = [?]

ASD and Ego Death
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I can describe this phenomenon from my own personal experience. I have AS which is included in the autism spectrum disorder.
First of all we have to define what Ego death means.
Ego death is an experience of mentally 'dying' (or reaching the end of time/end of the world/going permanently insane etc.) in an altered state of consciousness.
This kind of experience I had one year ago. I have to mention that I had OCD before ( Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder also ).
It all started suddenly, somewhere in April of 2013. From one day to another I started to have weird symptoms in my head, like I lost touch with reality. I couldn't identify myself anymore. This is only the first step of the problem, called Ego loss. The difference is that Ego loss might happen only for a moment or a short period of time. On the other hand I felt that the symptoms got worser and worser with each month. I couldn't sleep at night. I woke up with strong heart-beating, almost no breath and major cognitive altering. But somehow I managed to relate somehow to reality. I kept on going to university and studying as I could. But it was very painful. I became suicidal with time, wanting to end this misery I got into. However I thought that maybe I will surpass all of these with time. After a few months ( I cant remember well because I kinda lost the notion of time ) my altering psyche state reached the peek ( the maximum point where Ego death can reach ) and then I felt that some symptoms are reversible. I started to get a more pleasant sleep at night, my memory got better and better. I had hopes once more that everything might return to ,,normality" .
The outcome of all this isn't that great. Some of the symptoms remained like sudden panical attacks when I am exposed to strong noise or when I am in a crowd in the city. Concluding, try to avoid this at all costs. Its not healthy at all to go through Ego Death. I thak God that I didn't got insane, would have been much worser ...
 
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