So a while ago I was interested in trying some dating apps to see if I might be able to find success in the world of online dating.
I did read several guides on online dating before starting and I made sure to have a selfie of me , a detailed well written description of myself talking about my hobbies but also most importantly what qualities and abilities I expect from the girls dating me especially if it's a neurotypical girl which in most cases it is.
So I have tried messaging girls several times on various dating apps with a well written and detailed message supposed to get her attention but I have never gotten a response and the closest I ever got was a girl browsing my profile yet never writing anything.
Perhaps I should try getting some better photos and more of them and I do have a tripod at home I can use.
As for myself I am a 19 year old aspie teen with that stereotypically nerdy look , glasses ,chubby , not very physically active, I hate sports ,I love my aquarium fish along with other animals and learning about them.
I have no desire to get strong, go on the gym or get a six pack which many guy's won't get during their lifetime anyways because they spend their days on the sofa playing video games , sleeping an eating.
I also want to stray away from that toxic macho culture because I used to adhere to it at one point until my mid teens 15-16 such as "B o Ys DoNt CrY" or "It'S Ok To UsE violence and aggression for everything"
I still have anger management issues related to online games which is usually Pokemon Showdown because I am a sore loser even to the point of beating myself up to the point of bruises such as on my kneecaps.
Eventually once after I finish high school which will happen in a month I will make sure to visit a psychologist to find a way to fix my anger issues and other underlying issues even the unseen ones.
But sometimes I feel that the very reason I keep on getting rejected is because of my physical appearance and the fact that I have autism ,it's true that it can be hard work but if my future partner is willing give me a chance to help me with my problems and if I help her out I would be happy.
I tend to be somewhat reserved not opening up to just any person because I am not always sure whether I can trust them or if they will stab me in the back when I least expect it.
I also don't like people who do things such as abusing me verbally then later on denying it and lying their face off when confronted especially in front of others and then they deflect the accusation back at me because they are scumbags,I have experienced the emotional pain of dealing with these types of crooks from certain teachers at school and sometimes at home.
So the last thing I want from a potential date is a girl doing that and using it on a regular basis.
Currently I have no plans to start trying it again and in fact once I have my life situation sorted out such as a work from home job ,I will get a house of my own far away from the nearest neighbours especially if they hate noise .
I will eventually get myself a smaller parrot(Hahn's macaw ,Quakers ,a budgie) that can fullfill all my social needs for 10- 30 years or so because I don't trust everyone especially not neurotypicals outside of my family and friends and I want to be alone most of the day except for the bird and me .
Eventually once I am ready and when I have had birds for many years as a way to prepare myself I want to adopt a young child around mental age of the typical parrot which is around 2-3 years of age ,I know it will be a hard and bumpy rollercoaster ride especially in the beginning but I also know it will be filled with love and joy as well as sadness and the occasional temper tantrums + the sleepless nights.
This text is getting quite long so I will stop here , what do you think?
I did read several guides on online dating before starting and I made sure to have a selfie of me , a detailed well written description of myself talking about my hobbies but also most importantly what qualities and abilities I expect from the girls dating me especially if it's a neurotypical girl which in most cases it is.
So I have tried messaging girls several times on various dating apps with a well written and detailed message supposed to get her attention but I have never gotten a response and the closest I ever got was a girl browsing my profile yet never writing anything.
Perhaps I should try getting some better photos and more of them and I do have a tripod at home I can use.
As for myself I am a 19 year old aspie teen with that stereotypically nerdy look , glasses ,chubby , not very physically active, I hate sports ,I love my aquarium fish along with other animals and learning about them.
I have no desire to get strong, go on the gym or get a six pack which many guy's won't get during their lifetime anyways because they spend their days on the sofa playing video games , sleeping an eating.
I also want to stray away from that toxic macho culture because I used to adhere to it at one point until my mid teens 15-16 such as "B o Ys DoNt CrY" or "It'S Ok To UsE violence and aggression for everything"
I still have anger management issues related to online games which is usually Pokemon Showdown because I am a sore loser even to the point of beating myself up to the point of bruises such as on my kneecaps.
Eventually once after I finish high school which will happen in a month I will make sure to visit a psychologist to find a way to fix my anger issues and other underlying issues even the unseen ones.
But sometimes I feel that the very reason I keep on getting rejected is because of my physical appearance and the fact that I have autism ,it's true that it can be hard work but if my future partner is willing give me a chance to help me with my problems and if I help her out I would be happy.
I tend to be somewhat reserved not opening up to just any person because I am not always sure whether I can trust them or if they will stab me in the back when I least expect it.
I also don't like people who do things such as abusing me verbally then later on denying it and lying their face off when confronted especially in front of others and then they deflect the accusation back at me because they are scumbags,I have experienced the emotional pain of dealing with these types of crooks from certain teachers at school and sometimes at home.
So the last thing I want from a potential date is a girl doing that and using it on a regular basis.
Currently I have no plans to start trying it again and in fact once I have my life situation sorted out such as a work from home job ,I will get a house of my own far away from the nearest neighbours especially if they hate noise .
I will eventually get myself a smaller parrot(Hahn's macaw ,Quakers ,a budgie) that can fullfill all my social needs for 10- 30 years or so because I don't trust everyone especially not neurotypicals outside of my family and friends and I want to be alone most of the day except for the bird and me .
Eventually once I am ready and when I have had birds for many years as a way to prepare myself I want to adopt a young child around mental age of the typical parrot which is around 2-3 years of age ,I know it will be a hard and bumpy rollercoaster ride especially in the beginning but I also know it will be filled with love and joy as well as sadness and the occasional temper tantrums + the sleepless nights.
This text is getting quite long so I will stop here , what do you think?